➡️ @Draekos@yiff.life @Draekos@awoo.space

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Birds are asleep, post selfies

All terrain jort vehicles.

drunk status:
quality tequila.

things I am coming to terms with:
-Going to an overly packed tequila dinner at a restaurant I like
-sitting at a table with the distributors of the tequila the dinner was for
-after 4 drinks, being talked into not only showing off but talking about the furry porn market
-one dude is postfurry af and kinda wans a tequila bottle fursona.
-HE PAID FOR OUR DINNER WHAT?!

Is there a place to buy spoons from? I'm starting to get to teen-with-a-creditcard levels of future debt.

... I seriously think I lie to myself so that it doesn't feel like I'm lying to people I care about when I say I'm busy but really I just don't have the spoons left to share positive interaction with people.

I'm sorry if I've done that to you. I seriously am.

you cute tho.

sorry so many of my toots are shitty desperate depression posts.

problems with crying while trying to work:
-shit was hours ago, I need to focus
-hard to see sketch lines clearly
-have to keep mic muted because no one wants to listen to someone crying on stream
-birds are clearly upset, which means they get screamy and fluttery and the noise isn't helping

https://awoo.space/media/HtKREXe2J0bivthJtKo https://awoo.space/media/yvs3mJBaacV721KwLtM https://awoo.space/media/jTVh5cDl07_TyX5qQ3U https://awoo.space/media/ooqdLtutElED2XUTK2E

anyway, let's see what those tarot cards say, after I wake the birbs.

Okay there's a few of you and it's easier to just make it one message, heck it.

Currently lacking a working vehicle, spouse and roommate both work full time out of the house. Public transit is ABYSMAL. There's not really an easy way to GET to a professional to talk about medication outside of like, the price gouging of rideshare. <_<

Guess I should consider ridesharing to a doctor.

huh when adding the addiction CW, I thought I'd actually more directly address it? I dunno. Stuff.

Birds to be woken up soon, think I'll do a tarot reading and see how it treats me.

i don't know if this is a placebo at this point or 'real'. But caffeine doesn't wake me up so much as it clears the noise from my head so I can focus.

Had some adderal recently (yeah, I know, it's kinda not exactly legal to do but heck there it is) and actually felt like I'd finally pulled my brain out of fog and into sunlight for the first time in my life and hey that's........ scary?

Well, hello again crying fit. It's not a perfect solution but this'll pass.

Had a rough morning. Looking in the fridge while getting some food.
2 energy drinks. 2 days of streamming this weekend..... grabbed one. I need to chill out.

I've found caffeine in general is a very good way of calming me down, to the point where I've stopped asking for additional espressos in mochas when out and about. It would make me drowsy with that much of a punch. Now I'm sipping this can and feel BETTER.

.............................I should probably just delete that?