Velvet Silmeria!Mánibranðr @FreyaManibrandr@awoo.space

Hi, I am fronting again

I guess, on a more fundamental level, the reason why I am very much opposed to the way the discourse had gone on Twitter is because it came from attitudes that have been forged by the right-hand path, the same way a lot of people end up falling into and embracing fascism. To them, it's all about cleansing impurities and enforcing karma on those who fall.

None of us in this system had ever been compatible with the right hand path, and in fact it had been a source of friction even within those groups I used to be a part of. Perhaps that was part of the reason why I had been able to eject myself so effectively from the groups once I have seen I was walking down the wrong path.

In any case, I've always been about exploring and finding our own shadows, embracing it and turning it into something that can help the world around us. We do not fear our past and the mistakes we've made, but we have learned and grown from it. And with our experience, we understood how even the best of us are susceptible into falling into abusive behaviour patterns, especially when we depend on a moral dogma to get where we are now.

And this is important to speak up on and have a discussion about, because the trauma that this moral narcissism creates is real. The Fediverse drama that happened late last year is proof of that.

Speaking in personal terms, dealing with people who had weaponized my own past against me has been traumatizing each time it happened. And it's not because of the questioning and the doubt...

...it's because their goal is to make me hate myself and make me feel inherently, eternally and irrevocably inferior, it's because they feel entitled to verbally strip-search me and deny my humanity.

This is all pretty difficult to talk about, because I don't want to be mistaken for someone wanting to create a social backdoor for fascists, since this is something I've spent the last 1-2 years fighting against.

But on the other hand, I also need to talk about an uncomfortable topic of how leftist spaces have a problem with narcissism, and how that can be abused to harm those deemed "acceptable targets"

And if you ever get in a situation where someone reaches out to you after having left fascist groups and wanting to get away from those hateful ghouls?

Show them the path to deradicalization, hold them accountable and absolutely vet them to make sure their intentions are genuine, just...don't be a fucking cop about it.