Kistaro Windrider @Kistaro@awoo.space

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No, brain, “AD&D” is not a correct conversational substitute for “ADHD”

It doesn’t matter how desperately people love each other when they are terrible for each others’ mental health.

It doesn’t matter how unsustainable a relationship is, it always hurts to end it, especially after so many years.

Or something like that. I wish we had found some sort of path that worked. But we searched for years and the problems we couldn’t solve only got worse.

I feel like people I love who love each other are mutually unintelligible to each other and I have tried to translate for years and all I have done is prolonged a mess.

I spent the day traipsing around trails with my parents in a park near Stevens Pass, which we'd visited also when they were here eight years ago. Today wasn't perfect, but it was good, and there was a lot of important discussion about chronic anxiety (and how it runs in the family dramatically worse than I thought), emotions, co-dependent behavior, and the weird problems we've all made for ourselves that we don't really know how to solve.

They're treating me much more like an adult now.

@luciferMysticus whole wheat sub, fiber helps you feel full.

Also it turns out that part of what attracted my mother to my father is how completely 100% unlike her family he is.

She was tired of these people before I was even born. Of course I have mixed feelings at best about the eternal crises of my extended family.

My parents visited and I spent a few hours talking about the emotional and relationship problems I have today that trace back to the lack of socialization, narrow emotional range, and codependent behavior I was faced with growing up.

They agreed that these things were harmful, they see how it affected me and they wish they’d done things differently, and they’re dealing with many of the same issues because it wasn’t healthy for them either and they’re glad I’m figuring it out 25 years faster.

I really need to learn how to let people around me engage with the difficulties of the world like independent adults.

I’m not Toriel.

@Jacel insomnia is no fun. I’m sorry, and I want to just hug you a lot. I wish I was there and I wish things were easier. I wish a lot of things.

Preparing for my parents to visit this weekend included buying a safe and now I’m moving my obvious weed paraphernalia into it because it’s not that my mother has no respect for boundaries and privacy, it’s just that she has never seen anything wrong with idly going through drawers and shelves and cabinets when visiting family so I needed something with a lock on it.

My parents treated me way better than a lot of what I hear but I still have some issues to deal with

@salameleon I usually go Scythe of Vyse rather than Agh’s on Skywrath. His Q scales heavily with int, even more than his autoattack does, so the big +int item plus the disable is big. It’s definitely much harder to farm than the Agh’s, though

@JulieSqveakaroo It is no longer the 90s and there is no time for Klax.

@salameleon @aeroknot Yep, and I can try to figure out what core I can play in a Bane Lane in case your solo game doesn’t do it. I need to check what rules apply for proccing Nightmare Transfer...

@salameleon @aeroknot 100% chance to skillshot makes Mirana an especially apt partner, and Luna’s inability to not hit something poses a problem for Bane. Mirana, Pudge, Lina, Elder Titan, and Invoker can all exploit Nightmare because of their slow, point-target skillshots, as long as you are ready to use Nightmare End momentarily before the skillshot will land.

Unfortunately I’m terrible with all the heroes I just listed. I want to learn Pudge but haven’t started.

@salameleon Skywrath Mage: Come to lane with absurd mana regeneration and spam Arcane Bolt on the enemy whenever they try to farm. If they push their luck anyway, kill them. Your job is to let your carry free farm while the enemy gets nothing; against enemies without a large health pool, you can completely win the offlane. S&M falls off somewhere around level 12 without farm and picks up to a core position with farm. Go for Sheepstick, it makes up for lack of disable and builds int.

@salameleon I’d watch. I might be your Luna for one attempt later on, even.

Bane: Expect your team not to understand how Nightmare works, even if you tell them. You can use it to disable someone you need to run away from. If your team is smart enough to play around it, aim for any reachable target *other than* the enemy’s biggest threat in teamfights. A right clicker who can’t attack through Enfeeble is not the biggest threat. Ult the biggest threat after Nightmare and Enfeeble.