kinstuff, abstract vs material
I've been meaning to comment on this but my last Re-awoo reminds me. A close friend and now who I call a sister ended up reminding me of the risks and perhaps fruitless nature of focus on tangibles. I realize that it is, and has been, a source of my species dysphoria. That I think of myself differently because I don't have the form I would. There is that great and growing Wanting there that has been the result of too much focus on tangibles.
kinstuff, abstract vs material
Of course when focused on the concrete of this plane, the lack of All That hurts. But... I am forgetting the lessons I've learned about realness. about validity. I am forgetting the fact that the spirit of being this otter form is the very same spirit that defines me. If I do not define myself by what is inside, I would not be that form I take either. Or any form. I am the spirit of it all.
kinstuff, abstract vs material
BUT it is a mindset that reduces my dysphoria and reminds me that "there is no difference between this and that Me" is more than metaphor. IT is definition.
and it all is affirmation. I am Vloelei. the stuff inside this colorful space otter, this meatbody NB girl, and any other form I take. Between it all there is flow and glow~
kinstuff, abstract vs material
I am all of these things and most importantly how this spirit inside chooses to define verself. Often, I am an otter in any -cosm, then. I modify this identity and say that I AM not because I dislike this human body, but because THIS one fits me better. THIS is the one the spirit inside would choose and there is POWER in choice. I own my body and I own how I choose to define myself.
kinstuff, abstract vs material
@Oneironott fuck. yes.
breathe that sea.
<3
kinstuff, abstract vs material
It doesn't exactly serve to eliminate the fact that I do often wish I could experience Elsewhere and Elseform like I do everything here in the orthocosm, but maybe that is me clinging helplessly onto the material, instead of letting go and falling into the abstract nature of it all. Where every cosm and self flows together in this sea of connection and meaning.