language names, meta, joke-meta
i just used the word "israeli" as if it was a language name for comedic effect, But Actually,, it is! the official spoken language is Hebrew, but the official(?) signed language is....... Israeli Sign!
so yeah! i can* communicate in: english, hebrew, american, and israeli
(* at various levels; ranging all the way from "a few dozen words at best" to "literally my native language")
re: nonverbal, ???, unwanted physical contact
i think i also said "enjoy" when he looked confused between me and the joint and then promptly went back to signing and gestures only 🙃
re: nonverbal, ???
like,,,,,, when i go nonverbal it's obviously capital i Inconvenient, but does it actually indicate something Bad happened/is happening? or is that an external association i've built up on top of a mostly harmless thing my brain does sometimes?
re: nonverbal, ???
ugh i want to understand the limits of this thing, i want to understand what causes it and what it means when it does/doesn't happen; but i have no way of finding out other than doing the single thing i am worst at: listening to myself
joke?, grindr guys, re: long vent thread
oh no all those men i slept with were right: i AM pupy!
re: nonverbal, autism?, question with no definite answer probably
it might be: unmasking. because:: by speaking when i don't want to, i am Hollywood Acting to make myself hopefully seem more neurotypical
it might be: masking. because:: i am trying to appease People Around Me, who i by default (due to years of conditioning) always assume don't want to hear any of what i have to say
re: practical yet open questions, not necessarily needing any answers, re: rant, -, childhood, school, sex, autism?, ugh
and new airport border control
re: practical yet open questions, not necessarily needing any answers, re: rant, -, childhood, school, sex, autism?, ugh
maybe i need new friends and a new family 🙃
i'm a weird lil dogo and this is where i sadpost