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i dont know anyone here in boston except my roommate who will be moving away by september
and for various reasons moving to a place where i do know people is hard or impossible to arrange
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my heart is aching for a hundred different reasons and im running out of effective distractions
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does anyone even read these or am i just crying into the void here too
edit im sorry for that. that is a mean thing to say and i apologize.
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the thing i have learned is that anything good that happens to me, any connection or closeness, is ephemeral and temporary. it can and will go away without warning, no matter what anyone says to the contrary. so i must cherish it while i have it, and keep my grief to a minimum when it leaves, because i should have known it would happen. it always does. the only constant is me, and i should not bank on anything staying with me.
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don't tell me you'll love me forever. just do me a favor and tell me you're done before you go.
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@typhlosion I am reading them... it's really rough not having anyone irl, and I'm sorry you're going through that right now
@typhlosion Hi. I am reading. I care. Remember suffering is transient. I know plenty of cool folks in Boston, FWIW (including you). I am about to go to sleep. I would like to talk to you more when I wake up. I would like if you looked forward to it.
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@typhlosion That's all too relatable really :(
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@typhlosion I hope you can find a safe place to stay.
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@typhlosion im in the same spot. i live with 4 furry roommates and i dont like interacting with any of them. im sorry you feel this way and i hope things get better soon
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online friendships are no substitute for in person connections
i have plenty of the former but none of the latter and im bad at them both
i dont know how to make friends anymore
and i worry my loneliness is slowly killing me