A deconstruction of the ffxiv main story line (as far as I've gone anyway, spoilersish)
A Relm Reborn:
"So guys.... we made an MMO and forgot a plot. I guess it's evil empire is evil time."
Seventh Astral Cycle:
Where in a child tries to make the perfect cops, but just ends up with real world cops. Also, capitalists stop democracy.
Thancred is replaced by a Sylph doppelganger. His character from this point onward vastly improves.
Heavensward:
The pope says don't fuck dragons, so we gotta kill the pope. Also, shout out to Ravana, the best lad of them all.
Dragonsong War:
All the old NPCs are new again, and the new NPCs are evil but not. Darkness Light Dark Darkness Worlds Light Darkness.
OH MY GODS NIDHOG WHAT ARE THESE AoEs?!!?!?!?
Stormblood:
A twunk with a kitchen knife set beats your ass into the ground.
Better go to notJapan to go to notKorea to head to notMongolia to get the lord back on the throne in.... notChina which is just a different notJapan.
The best art compliment I've gotten to date I think was when @Draekos told me I drew stuff wrong but in a way that *felt* right and suddenly I just felt that whole burden of trying to be realistic and accurate and get things Objectively Right get heckin' kamehameha'd into the sun and nowadays I do a lot more "that's not right but I don't care 'cause I like it more that way" and my arts objectively improved for it
My eternal Contra take. (In short)
She's a piece of shit gatekeeper, doing some really hard, stressful and very needed work for people who do need it.
There isn't a cultural alternative to toxic masculinity and until there is we need this shitty bandage to help stop some of the bleeding.
My eternal Contra take.
Yes I watch every video she makes. Still. I try to like them. I try.
Bluntly, she's advertising to the kind of boys that would have included me if I'd not transitioned. I hate that but it's something to keep in mind.
That being said, she doesn't care about the damager her statements cause outside of that, and her persona demands she not or else she'd loose cred with the target she's got.
re: gay, hornt, subtoot, lewd
gods hi hello shameless fangirling but also kinda weird about the fact I did it because I don't normally do that and hi hello you're online and fuck hi I wish I wrote like you and please fuck my brain thanks <3
re: ffxiv, gay
<_<; why no, my character has ALWAYS had this dark hair with blue highlight and lips, I don't know what you could POSSIBLY imply with this.
Bigotry isn't ok just because it's directed at a horrible person. Be careful about who you're hurting in the process
Kintsugi always interested me as soon as I saw it. Maybe that initial interest was from this feeling? My soul being the metal making the pottery whole, and well, it feeling like it's not there???
Gods I need to put the phone down before I just don't sleep.
Also, no. The metaphorical vase pieces aren't ME. I don't think.
Okay one more thing, since now chatting with a friend who has similar "hole for a soul" feelings.
It's a loneliness that doesn't... loneliness is just the best word for it.
It's not being alone. I have a lot of social interaction, too much for my introverted tending self. And (as embarrassing as it ever feels to talk about) it's not loneliness in my skull.
No it's the loneliness that is the gaps in a object that seems like it should be whole.
.... And I want to be clear because I've had the talk before. "Productive" in a "this is making me feel like I've done some good in the world for myself and people I care about" way, not like... Partaking in capitalism and heading volume as the only important factor.
Super late night, weird mental places.
I've always been one to be behind a mask of some sort. It's just a lake back here after all.
Let me be confident in being open about it. Let other lakes form rivers and fuck it okay I'm getting either too tired or even this is starting to finally lose my focus for this metaphor.
Put a mask on me we both want me to wear. Let there be a give and take and don't let us have to feel alone.
Sorry, I've moved accounts D: