➡️ @Draekos@yiff.life @Draekos@awoo.space

sometimes I forget how boring straight porn can be...
and how shallow I am about it. If the woman was male, or the dude was actually a trans girl I'd suddenly be back on board.

That feeling of only getting 1 thing on your chore list done today.

And it's not even "Be happy about something today" (yeah. that's on my chore list)

Kinda feel like "Don't say something that will accidentally start an argument and leave you crying from conflict exhaustion and confusion" should be on tomorrow's list.

#KoboldLife (this isn't risque enough to need a NSFW marker right?)
https://awoo.space/media/E-2cuVsfeFjdZVzx85s

https://picarto.tv/Draekos
Drawing lewds, as ever :3 https://awoo.space/media/lhmOfRqaTqe7A9omBTw

and yes. I did spend my day doing self care, chores and a random ship renderdoodle rather than commissions. I'm trying really hard to not be mad at myself for that.

the unnaned frigate is definitely from the same faction as these cruisers though! Even if it is more practical, I do love the modern ships in space look.

https://awoo.space/media/2sUDgos67jIxtBy3zcY

because sometimes, I draw cool stuff rather than just cute/lewd.

Patrol frigate idea, most of the ship being railgun, capacitors and ammo. It's not really from anything really, just a fun design.
https://awoo.space/media/LPoH3uU4Z0ZLu-wt3FE

huh, also, Twidere seems to really hate sending image messages.
Got home and resent that selfie from drafts rather than on the way out the door.

Look out world, depressed dyke going for a walk around the block trying to feel human.

It really hurts when you're already in a depression that's kinda pushing into wanting self harm, and your partner is angry depressed and frustrated at you for not being able to handle the heavy discussion.

Gonna go cry into some laundry or dishes or anything that makes me feel like I actually do anything of value.

every time I've stood up from my desk today:
"I can't wait to sit back down and draw cutes."

all the time I'm at my desk:
"fuck, [chore] needs doing."

It's weird to procrastinate with cleaning.

I honestly don't have much to offer that's not desire to be able to help and cute art. So have some cuties. May they help you through your day
<3

https://awoo.space/media/NVylTsEhkMJGsaKdOJc https://awoo.space/media/XlPvs3DJ0jyB5saAJds https://awoo.space/media/im3nK7WV02_bAIpq2Tc https://awoo.space/media/RzN5UPTNLlaRL3JSya0

Seriously though, I don't know if it's me actually just following more of you (us, really) folks, or an actual upswing in depression around here.

i lack the spoons/battery charge/whatever else to reply to each of you all the time. But you're in my thoughts, and I hope knowing that helps you at least somewhat. Either way, I want you to know, you're loved, and I wish I had the ability to take away your hurting.

My problem in 2 steps:
1: Be a gay, depressed, tired, cute (other people insist so) girl.

2: Want to hug/smooch/support all the gay, depressed, tired, cute girls on Mastodon.

So very tired of trying (and feeling like I'm failing) to draw any day that's not fri/sat streams. So very tired of because accused of hating someone I'm trying to talk to and help. So tired of feeling like as soon as my emotional battery gets a chance to charge up it's hit with some serious drain again.

https://awoo.space/media/gO9KikMMwT1Kk0L6wZg