MikaMurstein @MikaMurstein@awoo.space

I call this a day and go to sleep. Talke care.

Somehow writing this book feels more like building a mosaic, and the tiny tiny tiles are short paragraphes. I have a great speech-into-text-software now that still has to learn so many specific terms, and it is still slow bc I am speaking slower than I thought, dare only short sentences, not as complex as when I type. I feel a little bit awkward speaking to no audience but loud. But this will change with time, won't it? Maybe I am not a good dictator, uhm good at dictating. We'll see.

I was rude towards a friend. I will burn in hell. I already am.

Wieder mal Freund_innenschafts #anxiety.

Other barriers you experience on here?

Do you find awoo layout eyesfriendly? I really can't read much here.

Midnatt. I say hello to my bed now.

Are here other queerfeminist disabled ppl that not already followis me on twitter? Hi there in case.

I am not sure if I need more and more platforms for talking into the void. For some time it was nice, bc it made me somehow free to talk about whatever bc it was not addressed to someone in particular and knowing that those who read it, read it voluntarily, felt good. But this feeling of freedom has passed. Do you believe writing books is actvism too? Asking for a mika.

Never mind, I am a late digital bloomer, digital dilatant still, maybe alwys will be. Not much spoons and resources in sight. I hardly understand what you all are talking about.

As if he could imagine it to be a thing at the beginning and then became protective, bc his frieind would not do something like that at all. Same old. That is why I can't keep one of my favourite books even if it was written before "Bergeners" where this backgroundstory was revealed. Could not forget it.

I reread Tomas Espedals "imot kunsten" for the first time in German, this book meant so much much to me, but I am giving it to my brother for his birthday. As much as I love that book, I can't keep it, after reading "Bergeners" and knowing about the #rape allegations against his writer friend and how he first asked that woman what happened, and she cried, said nothing and was in a bad state but later he did try to silence her and her boyfriend, >>

Try to think of nice things while aching, like meeting ppl I am fond of etc, even if that takes spoons too and doesn't happen too often anymore. Had too cancel something on Saturday.

So looking forward to the advanced speech-into-text-software, but I don't know when the publishing house will order it for me, if they first want to raise money or try to raise it afterwards. Really in a lot of extra pain, but still able to formultae sentences quite well, so I don't want to loose much more time. Actually I am writing those texts in my mind for years. But the physical performance of writing is often so painful that I did not start to write, most of them in first place,

Gotta give myself a treat and move my body in order not to make it worse. How much I wish I could write like the first two days at least two hours in a row and correct and make changes in the evening. See/read you another time.

Well in pain without a break, so much for writing the book. :( Will ask foran adequate speech-into-text software to make it happen anyways.