Suvvin' Bengêsko Zhukel @Silviu@awoo.space

I don't see a point in trying anymore.

I'm already close to losing my home, which will eventually cost me my job, then my car.

Losing her will kill me.

Great. Not only am I looking at possible eviction because of a medical incident devouring my rent funds, but my fiancee is so tired of worrying about me because of my constant bad luck and even worse health that she tells me she doesn't know how much longer she can do this.

I really don't have much reason to keep going at this point.

Got xrays, joint isn't chipped. I am put back together and I've been given a butt load of injections, a brace, and a rx for steroids to help with inflammation bc on top of the dislocation, I have serious bursitis under my shoulder blade.

My wallet, however, is crying, and so am I because lol rent? What is that?

....So guess who's waiting for an orthopaedic doctor to open and crying in the car because his fucked floppy jointed self fell and dislocated his shoulder?

Fuck me. I hate having EDS, I am in so much pain rn.

also this took forever to type one handed.

If they don't knock and just sneak a fucking "we missed you" note on my door again, I WILL find out who they were and get them into all sorts of shit.

If you have anxiety that bad and don't wanna deal with people, or you're that fucking lazy, maybe don't deliver packages.

I even left a note on my door saying "I AM HOME, PLEASE KNOCK AND GIVE ME MY PACKAGE, YOU ARE DELIVERING MY GLASSES THAT I NEED TO SEE WITH."

I have rearranged my entire sleep schedule today just to wait out the ups person so I can catch them before they attempt to leave a note and not my fucking package, which is the glasses I need to SEE to get to work.

So if anyone wants to know my constant pain level, it's just below "working a shoulder rotation intensive job with said shoulder partially dislocated for a week "

Tfw your chiropractor asks you 'how long has the shoulder pain been going on?'

'forever, but it was really bad this past week'

'.. Well yeah, you've subluxed it, time to put this bad boy back in'

'oh goodie.'

'... Your pain tolerance is slightly alarming, Nikolai.'

I am very tempted to leave effigies and small figures in the local park for like, a week, then take them all back before I move, and see what happens.

My altar tonight

Time to take a shot of whisky, thank Odin for letting Sköll only TASTE the moon and get a few more hour's of sleep and hope I have some eclipse influenced dreams.

My neighbour was boggling out the window at me bc it's eleven at night, 4°C and I was outside in a black plush bathrobe and paw slippers taking pictures of the sky

AWOOOOOOOO

Woops, I drew my Star Wars OC (in both his Imperial/First Order incarnations) that I ship with everyone because I CAN.

Look, if any Netjer is gonna have a bloodthirsty army, it's Sekhmet. Anubis is the patient God of Tired of Everyone's BS

Watching The Mummy Returns and I forgot about my biggest beef with the movie:

Anubis having an army and being Evil.

"For once in your life, DON'T SMASH"

"...Big Monster!"

(This scene always makes me feel called tf out)

it doesn't matter how many times I watch Ragnarok, I always cackle like a hyena

It's so damned good.