assistant fox keeper @somekindofcrow@awoo.space

Well.

That new episode hit like 20 Infinity Wars.

Yes Infinity War is now a unit of feelings.

Fuck.

Ahhhhh I am excited about this!!!

Okay my testosterone level went up after a solid month of meds what the fuck ahhhhhhhhhhh

It's probably normal and I shouldn't panic until I talk to my doctor Friday but ahhhhhhhhh.

Me: I am not good enough and I am not doing enough.
Also Me: Why am I still at work 3 hours past when I should have left?
Also Also Me: Capitalism!
Also Also Also Me: Why do I feel like I'm burning out?

Okay I think I realized why I'm okay with this movie and not overwhelmed with feelings.

1 - there is literally a giant deus ex machina glove and it's a comic book nothing can be taken at face value

2 - I very much emphasize with Thanos in that if the right half the people died many of my problems would probably be solved

Okay I can stay home and play video games and curl up in bed and be sad.

Or I can put on a dress and go outside and be social.

Life is difficult why is life difficult.

They did it.
I thought they might but wasnt sure.
But they did it.
They was beautiful.

Also the message after the post credits scene? A masterpiece.

I spent WAY too much time photoshopping this.
I'm sorry.
I'm actually not.

(Source for fox image is https://angeldice.deviantart.com/art/Nine-tailed-fox-276426878 according to Bing.)

I accidentally knocked a bunch of things off my bedside table and let's just say that a vibrator that's on + glasses + sharp corners of bedside furniture means that I need new lenses for my glasses.

Pretty sure the only reason why I'm not curled up in a ball crying is because I'm too broken to have anything resembling a healthy display of emotions.

Hi friends so I've been away for a bit.

Work has been intense. I'm currently in maybe 6x crisis mode at work? 7x? It's unclear how bad things are because if I stop and assess I'd cry.

My current stress and depression levels are super high. This morning I had to consciously tell myself to not give up for the first time in a while. Also I just ate salsa and chips 30 min past bedtime and then chased it with two spoonfuls of Nutella I feel sick right now.

I bought the purple ones. Because I didn't *need* a dozen pairs of panties and also I didn't have enough money on the gift card to buy all of them because I also had to buy toilet cleaning products since I'm an adult.

Oh no.

Do I buy the pink/black panties.
Or the purple/red/black panties.

Why is the store giving me a choice.

Boss: Right now you're the only man of color in the teaching faculty---
Me: Well I have some bad news for you...

(No I did not actually say that because coming out at work would be a very bad idea ha ha ha ha.)

-1 month hrt: damnit she's married
0 months hrt: damnit she's straight
1 month hrt: damnit her husband's also cute

I'm randomly poking through a Semi-Closed Online Social Media Site That I Have Been Posting Stuff On Since 20015 journal type thing and wow past me was a terrible person like all the time.

Also I now have narrowed down the exact moment when I realized I'm a sub/girl to a ten minute window. :3 :3 :3

I found a Wordpress anime review blog I made 12 years ago and it was embarrassing as hell good thing I could delete it instantly.

I am completely sober.

https://awoo.space/media/QDMdp9ZCNjrAfif7It8

https://awoo.space/media/kXXSDI4gSSkg-4eYsjA

Annnnnnd the horrible depression is back in the form of "nobody will ever love you and it's going to get even worse because you're completely broken and trying to fix it won't make it better" and I am out of video games to fight the loneliness and the sadness with yay.

@McMemeBot !order 4 gender feels