Little Blep Pupper @ulvra@awoo.space

Damn you personal truth...! *Shakes paw* >:c

So how does it make sense, to have your kinks out for public view, but at the same time being too awkward to just talk about them...? I don't know, maybe it's just me that's weird...

It's also not that they know, but rather the act of telling. If they find out elsewhere, from art, deduction or a list & then come & ask about it then I have no issue talking about it... I can't say it makes much sense. I can usually sling a few out myself, but then I quickly close up & stop.

Still, it's easier to speak to a stranger than it is to a friend too & how does that make sense...? The latter should be the one you trust more.

Many have those kink list things & back in the day I made one too, simply because it's less awkward to simply point & let them read & ask than it is to manually iron everything out every time, an awkwardness that's multiplied with friends.

Still, it's also weird to have your kinks out there for public view just like that somehow.

Kinks are an odd thing, how you can be simultaneously not embarrased by having one, but embarrassed that others know.

I find it easy to talk about kinks that you're definitely not into, but when it comes to things you like, especially weirder things, then it gets harder, particularly when it's with a friend whom you never really had anything sexual with before.

It's a catch 22, wanting to talk about something that excites you, but at the same time being too embarrassed to.

Pondertoots ❤

I'm an omega, I need an alpha, however aged by life I realise I don't have the spark, nor is my physical form compatible. I feel a decade older than I am and my style matches that. I don't have the style that would attract whom I need, nor am I cool enough to be anything other than me.

I realise that the chance of me finding someone is practically nonexistant, but if I embrace who I am beyond needs, then just maybe. I worry though about being burnt again.

To everyone out there dealing with the big hurricane right now, good luck and be safe.

We used to have two "leading" parties, one for the rich, one for the workers, but steadily they've become alike & in the process they're both kissing the arse of the local racist party, but more parties have arisen.

So what to do...? Vote.

I'm from Denmark & I'm sure you've all heard of the burka ban. Both these parties voted for, so now I vote against. My vote'll go to the Joker, because he might be a dreamer, but he's a good person. No more of this racist demonising nonsense.

That's it for the stream tonight, thanks to everyone who popped by, I hope you had fun even though we babbled so much ^-^;; and thanks to @maxine_red for joining me. ❤️

Friday is upon us & it's time for a stream! ^-^ Tonight a bit of casual Pupperframeyness with Mooxie for some Squeaky shenanigans & casual Khora farming.
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Looks like we'll be doing some casual Pupperframe tonight, since moo has a booster that we don't want going to waste. Will start out with an Eidolon hunt or two, so there's opportunities to possibly join, but because timing the stream will start in ~3 hours, after the dev stream.

Imagine suffering a visible handicap, to be unable to exist without being tied to visible aids every day and how it is to always be looked at, to always be viewed as your sickness or handicap before being viewed as a person. Then imagine having something that adds to that, but which you could hide away to save yourself additional looks... would you?

Yes, this is a metaphor for being trans and passing. Symbolism is an important tool for me.

That all reminded me though of a song that a friend found for me & it just fits so well... the song is literally about self harm & cutting, but if you listen beyond the literal interpretation it becomes a beautiful message for a struggling trans person.

It's become a very important song to me & I want to share it. My friend even made a piano cover specifically for & dedicated to me of it too. I can't not cry when I hear this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MYzT36DA0Rk

I can't say I was prepared, but tonight when I visited my parents there was theme going on TV on suicide. Not the usual thing, but actually talking to those who feel the desire & those who have lost someone, to try to understand & normalise talking to others about this darkness.

My parents have seen me breaking before & while I'm better there's a lot to relate to, so I cried a lot & we also got to talk a bit about it all. Not much, but some. It's not easy.

Moist moof. ❤️ ^-^