plurality weirdness
am i even that different? Is this even actually real? why do i have so much self doubt?
plurality weirdness
@Erika feel this a lot
it is real, but also not necessarily constant, pluralities can change in number and personality
we're still not sure how many of us there are or if any have come and gone already...all we know is that acknowledging each other as real helps us function, so we keep trying to.
plurality weirdness
@bug we are all just... constantly moving in and out.
"noise" in head is deafening related to everyone... Like, I'm fairly new to fronting but i've been around for a long time, but so has everyone else and its just mess and hell
i don't even know how to express it... i just know there are a lot lot lot lot lot of us here... :(
plurality weirdness
@Erika not having a separate body or set of memories makes it hard to feel differentiated yes
what's helped bug with that is visualizing distinct bodies, sometimes a few of us at once, so that we can tell each other apart and have more meaningful interactions
plurality weirdness
@bug if you notice: we do already have that. Like, I'm a wolf, Kya is a dragon thing, miri is a snowmew, Rachel is... rachel :P
plurality weirdness
@bug but then in me having a little bit where i'm not cofronting with people it suddenly feels all fake... even though I'm fully aware that i'm not exactly the same person [i think] and are legitimately obviously different...