Depression/Anxiety
I've come to a near complete shut down of my ability to do the one thing that brings in an income. The work is highly stressful, and I'm doing something like 5 jobs for the salary of less than one and no health benefits. (Upsides are a 1/3 share of all profit and I can't get fired for being trans).
It's terrifying. Contributing stresses are approaching homelessness and lack of access to HRT. I feel like if those weren't an issue, I'd be able to do my work again.
Depression/Anxiety
If I can't solve those, my alternative seems to be to walk away from the company I've been trying to build for the last decade, and somehow re-enter the corporate job market as a trans person interviewing for a whole host of jobs that I only want for survival purposes.
How do you even land a job when "excited about their work" is a requirement in tech and you're absolutely not excited about your work? Oh, and you're trans.
Depression/Anxiety
And if I stick with my current work... how do I make my brain start processing complex problems again? Some of it is work that I don't want to do. Some of it is work that I do want to do. None of it is work that I can concentrate on. Five to ten minutes in on most days and I'm zoning out. Not even doing other things. Just... mentally gone.
