@CoronaCoreanici in any group this large there are bound to be conflicts, issues of trust and anxiety and fear. That you’re willing to talk about them is good. And feeling like you don’t know your place in postfurry is...not uncommon (heck is usually the sign that you belong more than you realize).
If you’re worried about exclusion, talk with the ones you’re worried about excluding you. I’d wager they are willing to listen.