I don't often like who and what I am. I'm capable of a great deal that I don't think others are, but at the same time, the price I pay for those capabilities very often doesn't seem to be worth it. I'm more grateful than I can ever put into words, every day, for those who continue to put faith in me, and all I can do is work to ensure that I won't fail them in some grotesque, traumatic, and irreparable fashion. It feels inevitable that I will, even though I haven't yet. Part of why I'm on the path I am is to ensure that I don't, but I'm aware how thin the lines below me are, and how deep the drop beneath me is if they give way.
