So I used my fsa to get a Quell, and to my surprise, it actually helped with my pain levels. Kept them from going over a six, which says something, because I can't take anything stronger than 800mg of ibuprofen or it makes me sleep.
BUT I fucking lost the band to my Quell.
I'm so tired of living with pain and having to fight for rest that never comes and never does what it should in a normal person.
I'm tired of having joints sublux, tired of costochondritis, tired of migraines, tired of being tired. And in top of all of it, I'm tired of being chronically ill and in pain and BROKE
Mild fatalistic speech, chronic pain depression
That was one of the few things keeping my pain in check and now I can't use it because the band is gone and I can't afford to replace it.
It's "I wish I were dead so I wouldn't have to wish for sleep that won't come because of the pain" o'clock