It feels like after Further Confusion I am spending a lot of time delaying fun to do book keeping stuff like cooking reheatable meals and home maintence stuff.
@ZiaMacPine I’m exactly the same way. I oscillate between being frustrated that I don’t have time to do fun things, and feeling guilty/anxious that I haven’t done enough adulting.
@mageuzi yeah and in some ways that makes me "functional" but it can be so frustrating
I realize a lot of this front loading is because if I dont do it now I will feel guilty for not getting enough done.
Which was a treatment method I developed as a kid to deal with the ADHD but is also unhealthy