pondering plans today; weighing inclination/options for actually going to Pride for once.
if the metric is "do you want to do this because it sounds like fun" vs. "does the thought of doing this fill you with anxiety" then nope. :|
@green Trans Pride carries enough stigma that it hasn't been consumed by corporations yet. That makes it well worth attending for me, at least. :3
@mawr like, I want to go... but, logistics. this is one of those times that if I had a damn car, this would be a much easier decision to make positively, but having to bus there and back makes it uuuugh how even. plus hot.
@green If I may ask, whereabouts would you be bussing from?
@mawr Shoreline, Aurora Village. I think taking the E downtown, then taking the light rail back up, would do it. but now I'm having the "if I go I'll just wander around smiling vaguely for an hour feeling increasingly out of place until I break down and flee" feelings, which is already making me tear up. so, there's that too...
@mawr it'd be much easier if this was something I didn't care about, y'know? *sigh*
@mawr like, it'd be easier to convince myself to *go*, because the stakes for feeling rejected wouldn't be so high. :|
@green A few of the postfurries will be in attendance and are meeting up at the inch deep reflecting pool:
https://mastodon.social/users/Aradia/updates/3379127
@acetone_kitten and I will also be working on the safety team in orange vests, so we won't make for great company but we'll be there. ^^;
@green No pressure though -- if you don't feel up to it, that's okay. ♥️
the anxiety is about--sun/heat, logistics of travel to a strange place at an unusual time, feeding myself, finances, will I know/be able to find anybody I know there--the usual stuff that keeps me from doing a lot of events, especially in summer. :P