dreams (cw BABY, HAVING A DAMN BABY, very vague implied death)
in that dream I was in a maternity ward--the dream ~conveniently skipped~ all the horrible being pregnant and giving birth parts, and instead had me being treated kindly by nurses who gave me a "baby" (it was more like a "baby-concept") and I was all "oooh yay baby! so happy!" and then I woke up a little and thought "but I can never have a baby, sad" and then I woke up a little more and thought "BLEEARRRGH DO NOT WANT BABY"