Spiritwork
A bunch of stuff just slammed together in my head about my experiences during the NM trip and the conclusion I came to is... challenging.
Consider the weather. Far off inspiring thunderstorms with only occasional light rain reaching us for most of the time... except once we got to the top of the mesa where I was intending to have a "just heck me up" undirected spiritual something-or-other. THERE, it was rumbling thunder right overhead, and rain turned to hail until we gave up early.
Spiritwork
And of course, it was sunny and beautiful all the way DOWN the mesa. We could've turned around again, or stuck it out up there, but gods know how the weather would've changed then. It's weather.
All the other spiritwork I did, the less-flashy stuff, the training connection I cultivated and the meditative night walk, those went fine.
But I walked up that mesa with no planning other than a vague expectation of "stuff happens" and I got slapped down hard. Should've known better by now.
Spiritwork
This is not to say the trip was a loss. If nothing else, even that part was a coyote lesson.
I got plenty of stuff to do based on what I got from the night walk already, which this fits tight into. It's harder than just going up a mountain and getting hit by a (metaphorical) bolt of lightning, but the literal bolts of lightning sent a pretty clear message about which approach is right for me now.