sex stuff
this is a friend who i have got to the point where we want to Talk About Having Sex and then maybe Have Sex and while gender and physical capacity stuff does constrain things for both of us it's a super exciting thing to have back in my life
sex stuff
i dunno how exactly i want to be able to fantasise about my body and being amidst a ton of furry stuff is actually setting off so many ideas so thanks y'all
sex stuff
i do miss dick though. at some point i kinda decided to not be afraid of casual hookups (incorrect decision) and tinder put me into an incredible and really wonderful one year relationship. that just isn't how shit ends up working out though.
sex stuff
at least i'm starting to figure out how actual queer n trans people can get that sort of need fulfilled from eachother in a more open and needs-responsive way that doesn't force you to have to deal with a load of cis gay bullshit. cuz cis gay bullshit is a large part of what alienates me from maleness so much and i am glad af i have a way of thinking about myself that doesn't rely on that ideas and tropes about bodies and sexuality
sex stuff, food anxiety
things that would markedly improve my life
- a cat
- social acceptability to eat in public spaces on my own within uni
- regular fucking
sex stuff
esp because my last relationship lasted about year, included pretty much all my significant and meaningful sexual experience, and because of mh stuff for both of us was super limited. i straight up have never wanted to fuck in a context that i wasn't super comfortable with and could navigate with proper communication. now all of a sudden i'm getting that back