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CW'd because honestly I don't think I'd want to read this from someone else right now.
I've.. had a track record now of suicidal action. The quietly locking the door kind. And it's been recent.
I had this long ramble typed up about it, but honestly... I dunno. Not really the time? I'm tired, I'm drained. I'm upset someone I care about isn't in my life anymore. But I plan on seeing tomorrow, and the day after.
I love you, thank you for caring about me.
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@Draekos if you go to a hospital and tell them you are suicidal they will give you a room and monitor you until they can get someone in to evaluate you, they will try their best to get you in touch with resources and care.
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@cybermeow
hospitals are money.
and would require access to a vehicle (which I don't have) and the desire to expend energy and resources on myself (which I never have in those situations)...
thank you for the advice though. It's reasonable, but not practical.
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@Draekos I don't know where you live but where I live hospitals dont have a right to deny service and the fire department / EMS will drive you to a hospital. Yes it's a bit of an ordeal and quite a commitment (once you check in, you aren't allowed to leave till the process is over) if it gets dark it's best to have an emergency plan.