MH (-), I know, there's been a lot of these lately
Would honestly just like to actually like my art again. Motivation to work is so looowww and actual study to improve feels like a burden too heavy to lift.
Doesn't help that the most recent spike of actual drive to do personal art also was meshed with constantly being pulled away from the tablet. But hey, now a few days later when my attention isn't needed elsewhere, I'm just spinning tires and hating everything I make.
MH, relationships, blerg, procrastination?(-)
I'd wanted to get stuff done today. Chores half done, art sketched but I dunno.... not liking it at all as it stands.
Kinda want to built the gunpla that a friend sent me for christmas. But work and chores need doing. Conflicted. Mental state, not great.
Wondering why I bother to try to help, every time I do just seems to make things worse.
MH, relationships, blerg, procrastination?(-)
Fucking... bleh.
Morning started rough, partner late for work, snapped at me for saying "freaking out about it will just waste more time" to try to help keep them calm.
Why do I keep making this mistake? I say it because it would help ME to hear it, but it's always just bullshit to them. I tried to back out of the looming argument, but that was just my point being unable to stand scrutiny?... guh.
Hey, happy holidays folks!
for those of us not actually Christian:
the fuck man, what's up with the seperation of church and state am I right?
for all of us who can't be with the people they love: you got this, they're thinking of you. Maybe give em a phone call?
for those of us stuck with family, because somehow genetics = required 'love'?: you got this, if needs be making a drinking game out of every bigotted thing your grandma says. It got me through those evenings myself.
maybe kinda lewd, brain-social thing?
So like. I feel really uncomfortable, socially, with people seeing my face-face when out and about irl?
Kinda wish I could wear masks, or having it being more socially acceptable to have like chin/mouth covered by a scarf.
Not even for like, identity protection either.
I want to be able to have some say in what people see of me irl like I do online (notably stuff like shifting the charcter/sona name on stuff like here)
Sorry, I've moved accounts D: