I'm noticing that I feel like doing this kind of stuff when I'm feeling happy and positive and comfortable, but when I get anxious and stressed I don't really feel like it - feels a little wrong but moreso I'm just not interested. I don't really know what that says, but that might just be a product of depression. The same thing happens to my sex drive after all.
IIIIIIIIIIIIIII think it's tied to how positively I feel about my body because when I think I look good I wanna try being cute but when I feel more like a lumbering bad thing I shy away...