Fen @Fenreliania@awoo.space

@vahnj I'll just follow ya back then also those posts you made in reply to me didn't appear in the timeline just to add to the mystery.

@vahnj Yeah refreshing multiple times and it's hanging around.

fwiw nothing so far has been *that bad* it was more of a cautionary thing especially because it keeps popping up on twitter and then I get angry at twitter and then get angry any time I see any BotW haha

Hey @vahnj for some reason you're showing up in my home even though I unfollowed (Breath of the Wild stuff is all, trying needlessly hard to avoid it atm)

Someone was gonna draw me as a girl with long hair but I think they decided not to :<
I'm not about to like blame them, they were offering art for free, but still :<

@bunnylyn perfect little beb

@bunnylyn gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooossssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

@KitRedgrave booking in to see a psych in any case maybe they'll help.

i guess it's just me, forever, wishing i could do more and going nowhere

what am i

is this what dysphoria feels like or am i just entirely devoid of a personality save for the motions i've built up over the years, i just dont know

"what am i" is not a rhetorical question but i know you can't answer it. just that i can't either

i'm lost and alone

*begins to form a coherent thought*
actually I'm gonna mentally scream and curl up for no reason

I withdraw, I withdraw, I withdraw

I curl up, groaning to hold back a scream. I compress, I compress, and the spark ignites, and I expand

I throw my arms wide, I arch my back, I fracture into five hundred shards hesitant to leave, staying suspended in a shape like me

and I fall, on my side, and I weep, and I fuse together again without grace, no joins hidden.

oh no

GAH WHAT AM I

Nearly home time, excited to sketch a mechaaaaa

Okay so like, a giant mecha (talking like 15 storeys tall) with this energy exhaust/shield/not sure for hair, down to the waist. The mecha houses a sentient and ancient AI, and can pilot itself, but having a pilot is somehow an advantage (not sure why). So the pilot does not use the mecha, they serve it. The two form a bond, a relationship, as long as the pilot shares the mecha's goals and works towards them.

Very inspired by the Divines from COUNTER/Weight.

AAHHH I COULD BE A MECHA WITH LONG HAIR THAT'S SO ANIME AAAHHHH I'm gonna try and draw it.