Kentaro @Kentaro@awoo.space

And if I stick with my current work... how do I make my brain start processing complex problems again? Some of it is work that I don't want to do. Some of it is work that I do want to do. None of it is work that I can concentrate on. Five to ten minutes in on most days and I'm zoning out. Not even doing other things. Just... mentally gone.

If I can't solve those, my alternative seems to be to walk away from the company I've been trying to build for the last decade, and somehow re-enter the corporate job market as a trans person interviewing for a whole host of jobs that I only want for survival purposes.

How do you even land a job when "excited about their work" is a requirement in tech and you're absolutely not excited about your work? Oh, and you're trans.

I've come to a near complete shut down of my ability to do the one thing that brings in an income. The work is highly stressful, and I'm doing something like 5 jobs for the salary of less than one and no health benefits. (Upsides are a 1/3 share of all profit and I can't get fired for being trans).

It's terrifying. Contributing stresses are approaching homelessness and lack of access to HRT. I feel like if those weren't an issue, I'd be able to do my work again.

People should definitely lock their accounts if they need to feel safe.

That said, if we have a bunch of people locking their accounts to feel safe, this whole experiment is headed for failure.

Abuse is abuse, even when it's done with righteous intent. If we can't or won't expel the abusers among us, we are just the bird site with a different coat of paint.

Anger exercised against people who hold no power over you is probably anger you shouldn't have exercised.

Desperately seeking help finding an affordable place to live in Seattle.

Er, should have said I'm not finding any affordable rent or places to stay. Affording healthcare is a whole other challenge, but that's futile unless I live somewhere I can get it in the first place.

I'm facing a looming threat of homelessness. There's absolutely no way I can afford to stay where I am. I keep looking for an overlap between affordable rent and places where gender-affirming healthcare is accessible.

I've looked at Seattle, Austin, and Chicago (and am moving away from DC.) They're places where I know there are care facilities, but I'm not finding anything affordable and it's making me feel pretty crushed and hopeless.

First post. Still setting up my profile and getting familiar with this thing. Awoo-rawr!