Cabinet Derg @Motodrachen@awoo.space

@clipclopboom@snouts.online No, it turned out to be an impossible goal.

Sometimes I feel like I'm an impostor in Trans or Queer spaces.

Then I remember I've been a mixed gender multiple system since 2001 or so and got raised like I was supposed to grow up to be a woman.

So it's kinda like having Trans-ness thrust on you as a teen when all you wanted outta life was to be a neurotypical engineer. :\

Gender of the day: Soft drgn boi

Putting together playlists for each of your alters can be a fun experience. It's like leaving presents for yourself.

And it can help anchor identity and purpose to have your very own soundtrack.

@vanessalynne Keri: Oh, strap in, little one. I'm an ex-evil sorceress living with Tohri, who's kinda the self-imposed Bionic Boyfriend.

And then there's Yaori, who's only a couple months old and she's already seventeen. o_o And she's... Not Pure. She's what you get when you have a prophesied apocalypse child, and she wakes up after seeing herself being Born, and knows what she is.

But she asked us "Why does it have to be the end of Our World?"
*Grins* Darkness, Upside-down.

Gender of the day: Fire and Death

@faygraves Nah, you're cute.

@clipclopboom@snouts.online Tohri: Sexuality is one of those things where we're very much Not divided.

Keri: I mean yeah, we have our own Preferences and stuff. But that shouldn't ever get in the way of having a good time, I mean Tohri fucked a Rototiller once.

Tohri: Twice.

@clipclopboom@snouts.online I'm kinda, by Definition, down with just about anything.

Just as long as it's not a sudden Surprise.

@faygraves oh gods, same. I hate my professional look, my professional voice, and it fills me with a Ton of impostor feelings.

Besides, I look better in a Skirt or Kilt anyways. Getting asked by the owner in a passive-aggressive way to wear Pants when a customer is coming in really fucking Hurt.

@clipclopboom@snouts.online Keri: Alicorn, I owe you a drink, he IS a bellend.

Tohri: I know, but it Hurts because those skills in communicating with people Kindly were the first ones I had to learn and I got badly punished for trying to behave like other guys, By other guys.
And the older generation... They treat me like I'm still a Child, and get flabbergasted when they find out I know Their shit better than They do.

Kerithe: So, uh, I've had to work really hard to get over my prejudices against Men and the traditional power structures they revel in. I've been backsliding badly.

I don't feel this is because I've been Divorced from reality however. If anything, it was a Lot easier to give men the benefit of the doubt before I had to try and communicate with them on the regular.

But now? There's an even chance that if someone's swinging dick that they're Racist, Queerphobic, Dangerous, and impossible to communicate basic concepts to. If they're over 50 or so, that jumps to a 75% chance that they're brainwashed Garbage.

And this shows up clear as day when they see a Femme, weird dude in a Skirt crawling under a truck to do a Tie Rod End. They jump straight from Contempt, on through confusion, and straight to insecurity and Anger.

They complain how persecuted and alienated they are, but refuse to understand Why.
They complain that they don't feel Welcome anymore, but will Not take time to consider that They might be wrong.

And this has been doing Corrosive damage to Tohri, because he's been trying Desperately to pass as 'Male' so they'll stop picking on him. For more than a Decade. And all so he can get through the days at his job and not have to deal with passive-aggressive insults or Dog Whistles.

Or worse, folks telling us "Oh, c'mon, it's a Joke!"

No, mr. trump supporter homophobe racist. That's about as funny of a joke as your fucking Life is.

@pandora_parrot I grew up in a Hippie family, so my distrust of any authority coupled with growing up Pantheist skewed my perceptions a Lot.

I spent a Long time just hating the fact that churches Existed.

@Draekos Borb!

@vanessalynne It's not a new thing but it's a New Thing. =P

I just hate having to go 'I dunno, Male I suppose.'

@Elizafox Great, you just got Yaori wondering if Blockchains could be used in a 'Nine Billion names of God' sorta scenario.