Cabinet Derg @Motodrachen@awoo.space

@cozykaffe@snouts.online Keri: He displays a lot of behaviors that point to an underlying resistance to Growing Up, and he seems to want to live his life like a upper middle class teenager.

I doubt that emotional maturity is on his To-Do list

@cozykaffe@snouts.online Keri: Arin Hanson wants to be thirteen again.

*Alex Jones starts talking about Hillary clinton, saying she's a Demon, an interdimentional invader* Keri: O_o This guy... *Shakes head* Ugh I just wanted to watch Seth Myers snark on trump, not get a revelation that Alex knows about folks like me.

Like, not sure how I feel about that one. Entirely Possible the Bad Guys have their hands on one of Us.

I can deal with being rampantly horny all the time.
I can deal with being Aggressive and intense as a default setting.
I can even deal with the subtle psychological reinforcement as the Testosterone goes thru and urges me on.
The constant feeling of Muscle is what's getting to me. Like, I enjoy being Strong, but I can feel all my muscles lately and it makes me feel twice the size I really am.

And that's a weirdass feeling. Like I feel physically secure but for all the wrong reasons and TBH I was getting psychologically ready to be a lot more Femme.

And it's hard to feel femme when you're suffused with the feeling of being a biological Forklift.

@TheGarden Hot.

@clipclopboom@snouts.online @budgiebin@snouts.online has wares if you have coin

@Naux Wang Chung Tonite is my finishing move though.

@Manik@snouts.online Saaaame. It's kinda a narrow band. I knew that there was a co-ordinate opposite to it in the vicinity of 'Tomboy', but most of the words in english for this up until now have been some kinda slur.

@Manik@snouts.online It's a whole spectrum. I'm in that lane myself.

@Cilich Kerithe: Call me.

@Pan_Natek@beach.city It's why I try and just live my ideal. I still feel barred from adopting the Label, of course, but I'd rather just Be The Thing.

I hate having someone go 'Prove it' in any phrasing. Like... Can we leave that by the wayside? This is social, not a business transaction or scientific theory. It's what I am.

@Pan_Natek@beach.city Tarot is like a humanist leatherman for taking apart complicated problems with one tool that can do everything.

And you are absolutely allowed to play with your tools, as long as you know where the dangerous bits are.

@Lunostophiles@snouts.online Three decided to make their home here.

@void Yeah, uhhh... My testosterone doesn't need blocking most of the time, half my issue is that it never really Did anything. XD

So, I'm here. I want a somewhat different body, but I put a lot of work into loving the one I have. And I do love a lot about it, just that when you mix up a car and a truck, you can get an SUV, or something like an el Camino.

I've been having to accept that I'm an SUV wishing I was an el camino

Is Spiro like, crucial if most of the time you're okay with your testosterone levels and related physical attributes, but want to have the feminine attributes as well?

Like, after a lot of introspection I realized I'd be most comfortable with a body that was Both, not an in-between. And that there wasn't a clear path to take.

And all I'd ever wanted was a definition I could believe in and feel I was living, not just trying to live up to.
So I lived it and saw where it got me.

Ugh finally Keri is back to Right-Side-out. The whole Poison Ivy routine was getting tiresome

Self improvement in the age of criminal empire feels like bread and circuses.

I'll feel better once it all Burns and we have real problems to solve. Fuck Alabama. Fuck the GOP and fuck boomers.

And really, fuck society. Nothing changes if the good guys try and be sensible in the face of organized Evil

Dealing with living in a pluralistic society is hard because if you're actually doing your own thing, just about anyone can pop out of the woodwork and tell you that you're a faker