@Lumb I think you're describing @clipclopboom@snouts.online
re: second puberty issue for trans girls
@mxsiege@octodon.social Sure!
My dysphoria is Physical and emotional. I'm off meds right now, and going through a major testosterone spike.
So I get irritable, I get headaches, I'm aggressive, uncomfortable, and suffer from GI tract problems and an enlarged prostate that creates it's own host of issues.
My body has always been somewhat androgynous, I never went bald like my younger brothers, and most of my Gender Role Dysphoria was trauma-induced from my upbringing.
And I'm a Plural system, and one of my headmates absolutely can Not stand man-smell. So that has an aspect of physical dysphoria to it.
Really, HRT gives me a lot of gender Euphoria: My body reacts to even low-dose meds dramatically, my skin softens, I'm not irritated and intense all the time, and I smell the way I feel like I Should smell.
The rest of it is almost a Moot Point, if I wanna "Be a Girl" I can just put Kerithe out front and she just Radiates 'Woman' so hard that Passing isn't an issue.
Hence the 'Hermaphrodite' label. I can do Both, do them well, and some other stuff besides. I can feel totally Fine pulling my car over after hitting a nasty pothole, stalk out and plop down on the pavement and have a full conversation with the mechanic guy who pulls up behind me because he saw the smoke.
And the fact I'm wearing a skirt and leggings is Less important than "Yep, that's a Ford, Fix em with a hammer"
And then I go fix the thing on the side of the road, still in girlclothes. Not optimal, and I tore one of my nice skirts, but the Car got home in one piece.
So when it comes to Dysphoria? I had a Lot More dysphoria trying to get other Guys to treat me like a Man, than just Being non-binary, and wearing what I like to wear. The Hormonal profile is more of a Medical Problem at this point.
re: second puberty issue for trans girls
@mxsiege@octodon.social My bits started working 'Properly' for the first time ever on HRT.
Androgen insensitivity and/or androgen intolerance is a real thing, and getting on HRT can have all sorts of weird side effects if you're Intersex.
And the Dysphoria is different too. I love my Body, I just wish it loved me back.
@Waces That's basically Line-Shaft factories of the mid 1800s to the early 1930s before small induction motors took over for a Biiiiig water wheel or steam engine running Everything.
Big leather belts connecting individual tools and machines to a single big lineshaft. The mill buildings here still have Big holes in the oak floors for running machines off the next floor up's Line-Shaft
re: mh, unreality
@lemememeringue Hah! They're Alters who belong to a friend of mine.
And at this point they're basically Clients. It's almost constant Unicorn Rehab Therapy.
Mermaids don't understand why humans value pearls, given what they are.
And humans don't understand why mermaids value soda can tabs, given what they are.
There's thriving industries for artificial alternatives of both.
It's quite ridiculous of course. That's why sensible creatures deal in souls.
Sure, it's a renewable resource, but souls can't be faked and finding one that has aged AND has remained untarnished?
Utterly priceless.
re: mh, unreality
@lemememeringue That's my Actual, Real life lately.
Like no joke, I've spent the last year or so astral projecting and having friendly but gigantic unicorns crashing into my headspace from the UK.
@Cyborgneticz A lot of our world leaders match that description
Southern Mass's local machine healer and part time witchdoctor.
Tiny motorcycles, magic potions, machine tools, progressive rock, trance states, and hand sharpened drill bits. Oh, and I read Tarot. Probably 18+ just to be sure.
#nobot