-> @oneironott@vulpine.club @Oneironott@awoo.space

I love this, and i love the beings who have helped me to get this far. I’m very passionate about this, and i know i talk about it a LOT, but it has altered my life in so many ways and has given me the opportunity to actually -love- this life, and love myself

Postfurry actually was the catalyst to me connecting all the wires that didn’t seem right in my life, from my interests to my gender and species. Postfurry told me that it was okay to give all of this stuff meaning that was all previously “just escapism”. It showed me that it is a window to our hearts and that we are allowed to take all that we love and desire, weave it into a narrative and self, and not just say “this is me”, but BE this Us.

Now: yeah, this is me, it’s all been me and i can do awesome things with my perception and spirituality to bend my reality. I am real and so very unreal and the world is nothing like i thought it was

also i’m real gay and moving to Seattle.

Alternate 29: *POSTFURRY*

18-22/23: T H E V O I D
23-26: survival is nice i guess. Everything else i liked doesn’t really exist in my life. Only furries and escapism. I guess i’ll go back to school soon
27-28: *INTROSPECTION* oh yeah i’m DEFINITELY genderfluid no wait nonbinary no wait trans girl no wait… what was that first one? Oh well IDKLOL let me go back to my escapism fantasy life where nothing i do there will ever come back to play a part in who i actually am or anything
29: FUCK.
30: whelp

My life: a bad telling
???-11: i think i’m supposed to like sports but i’d rather swim and read books and write instead
11-13: i love swimming and reading and writing and pokemon i guess but nothing feels right
14: FURRIES
15: FURRIES
16: STILL FURRIES also my god am i gay and also crossdressing makes me feel weird and i’d rather people think i’m a girl NOT TRANS NOT TRANS
17: I don’t know if i’m trans but i want to go in HRT. Also all the previous stuff is still cool except sports

Okay multiverse, you don’t have to scream
I see you

jorps

I’ve been nervous this week. It’s my first week off work and things have been moving… slowly. It’s been a “one step forward, two steps back” situation, but i’m making headway.
I’m surprised by myself in how i’m handling things. Breaking this big task into much smaller ones, taking time to ground & be aware of my state, focusing on what i AM accomplishing rather than what I haven’t and not stressing the times i’m not being productive.
I’m just hoping everything is done in time.

AAAAAAAAAA I'M SO GAY

🎶​I I wanna nose your pretty taaaail and knead your big fat rump and liiiiccckkk 🎶​

Seriously, it's so good to have a libido again and all I want to do is be fucking HEDONISTIC and pleasure my friends and lust and celebrate being ALIVE and being US

Inflate your friends yo

thick tail thick haunches big butt

Ve turns to you and smiles warm, with eyes that flow over you with deep empathy. Ver rainbow hair glistens wet in the light of the sunrise. Ve doesn’t need to talk at first, nor do you.
[seas#warm#bright]
The toy offers ver paw with kindness.
“Care to join me?”

The soft melody rocks with the waves and you make yourself comfortable. Light of the glowing life around you slowly gives way to the light of the sunrise on the horizon.
You smile and feel the music rise to a more hopeful projected feeling, and you become particularly aware of the ebbs and flows of your life rocking like the ocean itself.

Mindlink attuned, you’re sure ve knows you are there and can feel your wonder, but ve doesn’t hesitate for a moment.
As ve plays, you feel strums of sorrow projected from its’ wake, but not a present kind. The kind of sorrow long over that is far more met with appreciation and thankfulness.
Ve seems far older than ve appears in that instance, and you can’t help but to feel the familiarity ve feels with every rock, fish, and pulse of current.

The merotter toy sat with ver tail flopped to one side, shimmering with the soft bioluminescence of the life around. It was hard to get a parsing glance of masculine or feminine off ver, but you are, of course, comfortable with this. Ver webbed paws strum chords off an instrument, water sparking with soft cyan glow off ver claws. Markings of soft blue wisps animate with the song as ve plays, and in the early morning, the waters luminesce in tune.
https://youtu.be/ay6shWXTnVU

You’re swimming along the coast one morning. The brilliant coral around the islands that dotted the area make for a soothing end to an evening full of play and thumping music in the underwater part of a city you call home (or maybe you’re just visiting).
You hear the sound from below, and see a shape vaguely above you some ways away. You decide to surface and peak slowly at the figure that sat on a large rock looking into the endless ocean.