Roady @Roady_Dragonfae@awoo.space

Holy shit. It happened yesterday and it's still going strong today.

I remembered how to breathe. Slow, steady, effortless.

My third eye split open in the middle of work and all of a sudden I was struck with a jolt of energy as I felt like I broke through to another spiritual circuit.

I'm seeing orbs out of the corner of my eye. Where there was once a slight presence of an aura around my hand is now emanating an intense energy field of purple/indigo.

Holy Fuck...

Roughly three weeks ago I made the switch to being ovo lacto vegetarian.

Since I cut meat entirely out of my diet I went through a huge stage of detoxification. I felt like crap for a good chunk of the first week and have continued to find adjustments to maintain a healthy routine.

The biggest improvement was adding a multivitamin/mineral supplement and more complete proteins like lentils. Overall, my head feels clearer and my energy levels are skyrocketing.

Holy shit.

The cover Gunship made of "Time After Time" is so beautifully cathartic that it made me cry.

Don't escape from reality.

Bend it, twist it, shatter the everloving fuck out of it.

It's only a bad day, not a bad life...

All I needed was two candle holders and now my altar is finally complete!

I'm currently in the process of moving into a friends' apartment in Kent and I just woke up from a vivid dream after passing out on the couch.

A vision of a fountain shaped like a Chinese temple spouting chocolate and melted gold is what stood out the most. I know. Deep down. That's definitely a sign of some amazing abundance to come.

If you find yourself worrying about whether or not you're a narcissist, you just answered your own question.

No narcissist is even remotely capable of that level of self reflection.

Yesterday I ate a ton of meat for breakfast. Started quivering and feeling sickly by the mid afternoon.

I have a tub of strawberries for breakfast this morning and I feel better than I have in who knows how long.

I think my body is telling me it's time to finally take that leap and become vegetarian.

I feel like I'm starting to settle back into demimasculine... I don't mind being called a He, but They is preferable.

I feel more like I'm a guy with feminine attributes.

Demimale
Non-Binary Male

I'm okay with that.

Ordering at wendy's tonight was like being stuck in the third circle of hell. Combined total of 45 minutes...Possibly an hour with a line going out the door and struggling to stay lucid in a tired stupor from a long day at work. I also hadn't eaten anything since 5 in the morning.

The moment my drink and my meal shows up, I grabbed it, kicked the door open and shouted FREEDOOOOM! At the top of my lungs.

Mornings have been a rough exercise in the practice of trusting the universe. I wake up and I can't stop crying... It's as if I'm going through a constant ritual of telling myself it's okay to let things go...

It's okay to surrender.

I'm sure it will pass eventually. I think I was correct in likening these effects to alcohol withdrawal.

Best analogy I can think of as far as manifesting desires is that ruminating on the intent is equivalent to constantly hitting the cancel button while waiting for a video to render. It's going to take time, so go make a sandwich, or take a walk.

I'm starting to realize the basis of my anxiety...My obsessive compulsive thoughts. My resentment.

I was mistrusting the universe this whole time. I thought I was all alone in dealing with my problems when I never had to bear the burden in the first place.

I turned my back on it... But all is forgiven. The door to the universe is always open. It's just a matter of taking the faithful leap through.

Note to self. I need to stay on top of eating enough over the course of a day. If I start going into starvation mode, my anxiety kicks in and it becomes incredibly difficult to stay present and control my obsessive thoughts. If there's one part of me that still doesn't want to accept surrendering, it's my subconscious monkey mind that came with this human vessel I inhabit.

Scrying with my surface tablet while the screen is off. It's a black, reflective surface after all. Could be worth trying.

As far as narrating goes, I'm inclined to dig up the funniest reports I can find on the Erowid experience vault and read them aloud.

Currently figuring out how to get a webpage off the ground for my Illustrations, comics, and animation. I also plan on doing voice work such as creepypasta readings and blogging on politics, life experiences, and spirituality.

I've been playing around with sigils in search for a new watermark/logo for me to use, and I love how this came out! Just need to vectorize it and I can start slapping it on my future work.