Roady @Roady_Dragonfae@awoo.space

I was squinting bitterly at one of those police mustangs parked along 4th Ave S in SODO today. Turns out there was a cop inside, and apparently I was glaring daggers right into his eyes. So sharply, in fact, that he took no time slamming the door and disappearing into the apartment he was parked at.

Given my large frame, green cargo pants, and boots he probably thought I was a combat vet. I seem to carry myself like one when I'm walking around that part of town.

Holy fuck. I just experienced another shift on the bus ride home. As if I can feel my whole reality changing and resetting every millisecond. I saw it. I felt it. The moment I shifted from the past to simply...Now

The entire universe melding and changing in accordance with my thoughts... Hell. By continuing to break through, I'm now seeing the texture of scales on my arm. Not just a pattern in my freckles, it now looks like they're fucking bump mapped onto my arm.

I'm always leery of people who look too ordinary. It's all too obvious that they're trying to blend in. Especially if it's clear on their face that they're straining to show emotion. Makes them look faker than the dog shit I'd put in my teacher's desk in 7th grade.

I love gazing at trees. It helps activate the pine needle gland.

Tiger's eye bracelet for the right wrist. Sodalite bracelet for the left wrist.

Leo sun, Scorpio moon.

Yin and yang.

The Sun in my right hand, Pluto in my left, with all the other star signs between my palms...

The lion is my shield, the scorpion is my sword.

Trusting the universe. Remembering to breathe.

Something's missing that could provide consistent results...

HOLY FUCK!

GRATITUDE!!!

I... Am FUCKING grateful!

I don't care if I've been through some shit! Every day I have something I can be grateful for in some fashion.

I have gratitude for my job. My friends. The fact that I actually survived all of that crazy shit? FUCK YEAH!

Holy shit. It happened yesterday and it's still going strong today.

I remembered how to breathe. Slow, steady, effortless.

My third eye split open in the middle of work and all of a sudden I was struck with a jolt of energy as I felt like I broke through to another spiritual circuit.

I'm seeing orbs out of the corner of my eye. Where there was once a slight presence of an aura around my hand is now emanating an intense energy field of purple/indigo.

Holy Fuck...

Roughly three weeks ago I made the switch to being ovo lacto vegetarian.

Since I cut meat entirely out of my diet I went through a huge stage of detoxification. I felt like crap for a good chunk of the first week and have continued to find adjustments to maintain a healthy routine.

The biggest improvement was adding a multivitamin/mineral supplement and more complete proteins like lentils. Overall, my head feels clearer and my energy levels are skyrocketing.

Holy shit.

The cover Gunship made of "Time After Time" is so beautifully cathartic that it made me cry.

Don't escape from reality.

Bend it, twist it, shatter the everloving fuck out of it.

It's only a bad day, not a bad life...

All I needed was two candle holders and now my altar is finally complete!

I'm currently in the process of moving into a friends' apartment in Kent and I just woke up from a vivid dream after passing out on the couch.

A vision of a fountain shaped like a Chinese temple spouting chocolate and melted gold is what stood out the most. I know. Deep down. That's definitely a sign of some amazing abundance to come.

If you find yourself worrying about whether or not you're a narcissist, you just answered your own question.

No narcissist is even remotely capable of that level of self reflection.

Yesterday I ate a ton of meat for breakfast. Started quivering and feeling sickly by the mid afternoon.

I have a tub of strawberries for breakfast this morning and I feel better than I have in who knows how long.

I think my body is telling me it's time to finally take that leap and become vegetarian.

I feel like I'm starting to settle back into demimasculine... I don't mind being called a He, but They is preferable.

I feel more like I'm a guy with feminine attributes.

Demimale
Non-Binary Male

I'm okay with that.

Ordering at wendy's tonight was like being stuck in the third circle of hell. Combined total of 45 minutes...Possibly an hour with a line going out the door and struggling to stay lucid in a tired stupor from a long day at work. I also hadn't eaten anything since 5 in the morning.

The moment my drink and my meal shows up, I grabbed it, kicked the door open and shouted FREEDOOOOM! At the top of my lungs.

Mornings have been a rough exercise in the practice of trusting the universe. I wake up and I can't stop crying... It's as if I'm going through a constant ritual of telling myself it's okay to let things go...

It's okay to surrender.

I'm sure it will pass eventually. I think I was correct in likening these effects to alcohol withdrawal.