Roady @Roady_Dragonfae@awoo.space

I'm starting to make out the trajectory of my path. It's clear as day...

And it's absolutely fucking beautiful...

As I trudge on ahead to accomplish my deepest desires, I find myself reaching a light at the end of this long tunnel towards stability...

A sense of building anticipation as I slowly begin the process of patching together my fursuit... In anticipation of my freedom from months stuck in Babylonian entropy.

Months of isolation from my communities except for the signals I broadcast across the digital ether...

I look forward to finding my way back home...To all of you.

Holy fuck. December left me almost completely drained of glamor... I gotta pull some serious metaphysical strings to patch up my worklife and fast.

2019 has been an interesting year so far as I move forward in my process of Coagula.

If you want a swiss army knife of a phone, a galaxy note 9 is a worthy investment. This is a Christmas present I won't take for granted and I see it as a key to unlocking my YouTube career. Art, Photography, and a camcorder to rival a DSLR? Hell yes.

I identify with this picture, and this quote, to the point that it hurts a little. This is my entire year right here.

Last night was the first baby steps into becoming fully lucid in a dream.

I found myself on a ride through a snowy, brutalist landscape before I found myself falling from what appeared to be 300 feet above ground.

It was through conscious action that my wings unfurled and I glided to a nearby rooftop where I picked up a laser rifle and started shooting at goons. This state of lucid awareness lasted a total of five minutes...

The hypnagogic state is lasting a lot longer too. Especially with the aid of white noise like a babbling brook. I'm on the brink of another threshold methinks.

I'm starting to notice that my energy patterns are phasing out of the model of chakras and into the eight circuits of consciousness. Yielding results that are more in tune with creating my own reality.

It's at this point that I'm feeling more streamlined and less muddled in my spiritual level grinding.

My antlers are in! Nobody panic! I'm just going through yet another process of solve et coagula!

Well... It looks like it may be time to part with my little spaceship. If I stand any chance of having a faster commute or any kind of a social life, I need a lower profile car with better gas mileage.

I miss everybody... I know I haven't been there as of late, but it's all a matter of getting my ducks in a row. Both within and without.

Cheers, everyone. Stay safe out there.

Holy fuck. After talking to the dragon skeleton in the living room and disappearing into the forest I opened up in my fucking living room, I retreat back to my den to dance. The silhouette of my antlers like tree branches from my head.

I lie here collapsed in bed and what do I see? But my iridescent arm scales refractalllling light from my little lamp.

I'm deciding to go celibate for two weeks. I'm on day two now and already I'm feeling energy building up in my lower chakras.

I'm getting pretty close as far as separating from my physical body, and I've heard that astral sex doesn't even compare to what you find on earth.

Here's to hoping I can visit folks who could see me on that plane. Maybe even attend events and stand in the circle at the Eyrie in my ethereal form.

Sometimes you just have to work within time constraints to be a successful youtuber. As much as I want to animate everything, I'm thinking of doing a total overhaul on my fursuit and using puppets and vfx instead.

It's time-effective, and I can still maintain the nostalgic 80s patina I'm looking for.

What happened over the last two years is I went backwards. I dropped out before I turned on and tuned in. But that's okay. It was meant to be. Because now I can start over and get it right. To turn on, to tune in, and finally drop out.

I'm sorry I've been so absent as of late. I've been undergoing a major metamorphosis as far as working on myself on a spiritual level.

It's becoming easier. To remember that I was never lost to begin with. That I am already 100% complete.

I look forward, in divine time, to seeing everyone again. Maybe at another game night. Maybe at Glowtide. We'll see.

People say it's easy to switch off the mind. But that's only after mucking out decades of social conditioning.

Something is telling me this may be the first time I've ever chose to incarnate as a human. Or if I had a past life as a human it was very short lived. Most likely a child who lived through the 80s and never had a chance to see adulthood.

Though this may not be my first time on earth. Something about witnessing a mass extinction on this planet feels all too familiar.