cancer, dysphoria, fatalistic humour
Found another anomalous growth on my skin similar to the cancer I had removed 2 years ago. Flat, scaly and hard patch of skin almost like a mole, but colourless, and constantly bleeding/peeling/cracking etc.
It's on my chest and part of me wishes it IS cancer, and that it'd be enough to make the doc recommend top surgery to prevent the inevitable breast cancer.