Sparrow 🐦 @Sparrow@awoo.space

I've finally achieved my weird goal of becoming the kind of person who burns candles every night and drinks a shitton of herbal tea. ~

I'm doing better now, fwiw.

I went for a jog, showered (both very grounding activities for me), then visited cuddle friend and had a good time.

Now to either paint and finish hellbbyboy, or play that doki doki nonsense. Because perhaps ironically, watching the sexviolence fever dream, and consuming horror bs makes me feel better. *SHRUG*

Hello, panic attack.

Decreased meds from 50 mg to 30 mg in process of cutting them out entirely. Maybe this is a reaction to that?

I have plans to see w cuddle friend in an hour, and I was really looking forward to it. I feel like if I go I'll be better off, but I also don't feel like I'm in my body.

Friends: it's okay to let the ppl around you fight their own battles. It's okay to let them fuck up occasionally. It's actually good for people to fuck up.

Irl friends texting me like "can you wake up your roommate? We're supposed to hang out in ten minutes."

Like, no, I'm not going to barge in and wake her up. She deserves her privacy. It's not my fault she's sleeping in.

Y'all see the Icelandic Indie Pop scene in the last episode of Gayle? It's very Mighty Boosh and I highly recommend if you got a minute.

https://youtu.be/0PJXMxaESZo?t=18m51s

My roommate and I have gotten into this pattern of peacefully ignoring each other, headphones on, reading/painting/watching junk/playing games, for about 2 hours at a time, then pausing to have a deep conversation for about 15 minutes, then going back to ignoring each other. It's very good.

"In the words of the late Jimmy Carter: Lez out, or get out" - Gayle

We hosted a game day and it went really well!!

Also we finally set up the chairs at the table. Still need a couch, but progress is happening.

Oops I accidentally put milk in my herbal tea, yuck.

Oof. Woke up super hung over. X.X

I'm eating ramen now though, so that seems to be helping.

The votive candle I had going in the living room just put itself out.

WHAT DOES THIS MEAN.

I did it

I am drunnnnkkkkkkkk

For example, today I managed to accomplish 65% of my goals (11/17). I feel productive but not drained and awful.

✨​2018 Goal-Making Criteria✨​

💜​ Make goals that are challenging yet sustainable
💙​Prioritize 3-5 things for each day
💚​ Be forgiving if I only get to 1-3 of those prioritizes
💛​ Aim to continuously improve but allow for off-days

I have an exciting week planned!

Tomorrow I'm hosting a Game Day, and after that I'm trying out an aerial hoop class.

Monday I'm going to visit a snuggle friend, and later this week we're going to check out a pole dance class together.

I'm meeting a new client on Thursday, and on Saturday I'm going to get my hairs trimmed and dyed. Wee!

Okay, coffee is kicking in. Time to finally write this lesson plan. :P

Starting next week I'm going to be adding a second client to my caseload.

Which means that after this next pay period, I'll actually be making enough money to get by more or less comfortably.

Maybe we can buy a couch! :D