Sparrow 🐦 @Sparrow@awoo.space

I really want to make new friends irl, but every time I get invited to a party that isn't all ppl I already know, I get anxious to the point of nausea and can't go. :(

No, phone, you do *not* get to autocorrect "rest" to "test". That is *not* okay!!

I always forget that Gargron exists. Whoops lol.

Good morb~~

I'm feelin' very anxious today, and I don't know why! Hoooooray!

On the bright side (literally), it's sunny and nice out again. :D

I have started writing again, and am finding it equal parts exhausting and satisfying.

I wrote for just under 20 minutes tonight, and will do more in the morning.

I really need to get to sleep, which means I'll probably read a bit more of Dorian Dawes' Harbringer Island, pace the house a bit, fidget in bed, then eventually fall asleep.

I should probably go to sleep. I've been up reading about "aspie girls" for 2 hours now and I'm getting sleepy, whoops.

Reading about "aspie girls" (written by women with aspergers) and realizing that most of the descriptions are... oddly relatable? I mean I'm not a girl, but I was socialized as one. Idk... I didn't think I was on the spectrum but a lot of this is really relatable, and I know autism often manifests differently in women.

At my cousin's wedding today. So far I'm holding up alright among the heterosexuals. Here's some pictures of me today.

Eye contact included.

My Kindle library is all books on codependency, managing anxiety, and horror written by queer authors. :P ✨

Ughhhh it's raining and I'm alone in my apartment~ who wants to hold this *slightly spooped out* I MEAN TUFF enby?

It's been a lovely night of relaxation and self-reflection. Goodnight, everyone!

Tonight is a Self-care & Self-growth night:

I'm playing one (1) day of SV, then doing one (1) unit of self-growth-something: ie yoga poses, reading a chapter in my codependency book, journalling for 10 min, or spending 10 min researching my informational interviews.

I play Stardew Valley like I handle real life: I get extremely distracted, I waste time, and I forget where I parked my horse

A storm is starting to brew.

Because I have Tues/Thurs afternoons off next week, and can try out "that exciting new stretch class" then instead, I'm giving myself permission to stay home (& warm & dry) tonight.

I might do some yoga before bed, but letting myself relax and not drive in the rain is going to be really nice.

My Saga, in summary:

Day 1: IRS asked for my credit card account #, I accidentally entered the card number, they froze my acct for 24 hours

Days 2 and 3: IRS website experiencing "technical difficulties"

Day 4: Enter my credit card ACCOUNT #, told it didn't match records, account frozen for another 24 hours

WTFFFFF

Sure wish the IRS's website was even marginally usable.

Still can't access last year's tax return and I kinda need it to file this year. D: