Nettle Briar @Ulfra_Wolfe@awoo.space

A part of me is so worried that that is like the afterlife. Just... leaving the body and getting fuzzy. That I'd lose all those memories of others, but still exist as some half-life form. I could easily see it that way too -- all that I experienced, just never remembering Hazel and Willow and never struggling to get back to them.

I am so HAPPY to be in a place with people in it now. I appreciate life so much more now. It's shocking how much we take for granted -- even our basic senses of feeling, of being able to hug onto a *person*.

Can't stop crying. I feel so good to be back in reality again, haha. But also I miss the playground, but can't remember anything about it.

Thinking back to it, though, that feeling of being back in first grade? It was pleasant.

Like a mixture of playground in daylight, indoor play area, etc.

It was more fear of losing those I cared about by staying there too long that made me afraid.

But then afterwards I realized that I could have been there forever and lost sight of myself. It was pleasant, but terrifying?

I'm still crying over it. That suffocating feeling of half-life. Like I was being kept back from anything by this foam all around.

Update on Salvia trip: That was traumatizing and difficult to explain.

Felt like I was back in First Grade, in a way, but ... it's more a feeling than a vision. Tried to crawl back to Hazel and Willow, but I felt like I couldn't, felt paralyzed to see them for so long, and it was so so hard to just be there in a half-existence with these fuzzy recollections of those I cared about.

Spokle drew Nettle, my trans ewe with horns!

https://awoo.space/media/thGdNuXIivr_rYisiOY

@Alistor Thanks, I hope the same for you!

@Shotagonist@mastodon.social
Salvia divinorum. "Seers sage". Legal in Washington, induces visions.

We are getting some salvia in and I am hoping they will help Willow with her visions of her past, and help me get visions that i feel blocked off from.

@mawr
It's more like someone's horror flavored GURPS adventure game than anything

@mawr
If you can handle horror that's not *too* horrifying you might like it. Would totally watch it with you.

@mawr
The Phantasm series! I love it even if it hurt me (they totally wrote out a psychic link storyline from 2 to 3 :( )

@green @anthracite @frameacloud "I will make this dish!" 'You can't! That's unsafe!' "You're under arrest?" 'Wh... for what?' "OBSTRUCTION OF JUSTICE"

@mawr

Required:

No bigot will destroy us. No system will erase us. No one will shove us back into the closet. We are here to stay.

Had some Blue Heron mixed with Blue Dream wax and wooooooooow. <3