Time for some more positivity.
One lesson I've learned in life that's been helpful is to set a destination... but don't make getting there the end all be all. Travel the road, take the side paths, explore, take in the sights, and enjoy the journey and just take it one day at a time.
If you keep going, you'll get there in time so there's no rush to get to that one destination, take solace in that. And hey, maybe you'll even find somewhere that feels more right along the way. ^^
For those out here struggling with something, something that feels like there's no solution or cure... I understand, maybe not the situation but how it feels far too well... but keep trying!
Don't surrender to it!
There is a cure, there is a solution somewhere, just keep fighting and one day you'll find it! Just sometimes it can take longer than we'd like.
Have hope, don't give up, and know I believe in you! ^^
Anxiety, cannabis, discussion, generally positive as hell!
Of all the things that solved the majority of my problems, it was the one thing I was always warned about the 'dangers' of: Cannabis.
I was always warned about it being a gateway, that it was some big demon that would destroy my life and prevent me from being successful or happy. It would lead me to abusing it, becoming a hollow person. This is still repeated by the media, by the general population...
Hell, even my ex mate was concerned about me using it because I used to abuse alcohol years ago... And to an extent smoke weed every day when I was younger. To be fair, these concerns specifically were valid about using something as escapism, so I can't fault that...
But then I started to use it daily to cope with some emotional shit... and after about a month or two of that... I stopped. For a whole week. Then I started to feel my anxiety creeping back up and realized something. I had no anxiety when I was high... nor for a good while after I had quit. It slowly began to creep back, but not as intense as before.
So I began to experiment, trying small doses of THC:CBD 1:1's, and then my anxiety would just be gone for... 2 days?
Speed up to today, I just need to smoke or take an edible a couple of times a week, and my anxiety stays away entirely.
I'm now generally happy. I have been clothes shopping, I feel happy about my appearance. My mind feels clear, I can feel a wider range of emotions and overall... I feel better as a person. I'm -happy-. I still have moments, but we all do. that's part of having emotions... but overall I feel GOOD. My anxiety is just.... utterly gone. Mind you what I'm describing here is the majority of the time when I'm not high.
All it takes is a bit of cannabis for me here and there, and its done more to help me control the anxiety than the emotional deadening SSRIs I was put on (that we had to stop because of emotional deadening. x.-.x) with the worst side effect being I run out of snacks and have an otherwise fun night gaming and chatting with friends.
So is cannabis a magical cure all? No. But, for me, it fucking helped more than most things and I am going to be happy as fuck about that. Because holy shit I can actually LIVE life and not just live anxiety. It's fucking glorious.
True friends are the friends that believe in you and continue to be there, no matter how rough things get. The ones who even as you make mistakes, they realize you learn from them. They wait for you to return if you go off for a while to take time to yourself or to explore new things.
Cherish those friends, remember to always thank them for being there, appreciate them, and love them like they do you.
Thank you to my friends and everyone else, too. ^^
Otherkin, sea dragon and part-time gryphon (Nakawe at cons!), often goo, extremely spiritual, high functioning autistic, agender, demi, socialist, extremely pro cannabis.
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