citriz @citriz@awoo.space

I also feel compelled specify, since apparently this often goes unsaid, that this is not about any prior interactions or anyone in particular I've met on here.

Full disclosure I even considered titling this CW "Have I been an ass? Click here to find out whether you may be entitled to compensation!" to make it sound less serious, but I was too scared it would come off as disrespectful to the handful of people I've interacted with so far, who I dearly hope I have not already made uncomfortable in some way.

This is just how neurotic I am, how much I tend to over-filter my presence here, and I'm trying to make space for myself to practice unmasking a little bit. ​

I really want to be more myself on here, post more of my art and also more of my relatively SFW thoughts, and actually maybe interact with folks.

Unfortunately, I'm like clinically bad at reading the vibe, and the fediverse kind of intimidates the heck out of me. I feel like I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing on here so if I manage to get past my fear and post regularly then I will probably mess up sometimes.

If (or when) that happens, please feel free to tell me plainly that I'm being an ass.
Or if that's asking too much (I totally understand it can be!) then there won't be any hard feelings if you just block me outright.
I'm open to criticism and I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable.

Also if anybody has any useful tips for navigating this space, I'd be super grateful to hear them too!

Thank you for reading. ​

I'm reminded of the "pie of responsibility" exercise that my therapist taught me:

In this exercise you consider a situation, task or event, and cut a circular "pie" into pieces based on the proportion of responsibility belonging to each involved party (or external forces in general). It is meant to help when you take too much responsibility for things out of your control.

Unfortunately in this exercise I am just as much of a glutton for pie as I am in real life.

@niss As someone who doesn't know you that well so maybe this is more of an outside perspective: I don't think kesi's body is sensitive content.