Demi @demi@awoo.space

today really sucks and i’m feeling so awful

the best thing about fatigue is trying to have a nap and waking up more tired than you started out

seeking medical treatment is going to be a full time job, regardless of what it is. struggling with both is going to hurt you more in the long term, and you still get paid for a few months while you are on leave.

as a reminder, it’s the right thing to do to go on medical leave if you are unwell and are struggling with work as a result.

i had to have someone really push me to do it, and i am so thankful that i listened to them.

trying to do my nails this morning in an attempt to do something fun

i love how fucking petty fitbit is that they won’t allow data to sync into healthkit

i’m pleased with this amount of sleep

being cold and in pain all the time is killing me, because nobody seems to be able to figure out what is wrong

love to be in agonizing pain

life is really awful

got a heart/sleep monitor to keep a better eye on my health and it’s misreading my resting heart rate by 20-30% — i guess i will have to give it a few days to see if it improves :/

it would be nice if i didn’t get lots of random aches and pains, but this is cool and new

i miss writing new and exciting software; i hope i am able to do that again.

cool, i got a shower in and some long outstanding chores before i started feeling terrible again and need to lie down

i feel slightly functional this morning so i am trying to cram everything i possibly can into this short window of time

@ticky it’s disappointing because the app is probably configured in such a way that they could easily wrap it around almost any social media API.

trying to work out how to build an angels commander deck and realizing that “mayael the anima” as commander makes this very easy and could make this a lot faster

@Aleen all true, also a bunch of transphobic “jokes”

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@Aleen house, binge rewatch because it is interesting and i need to keep my mind off what is going on with me

sweeeet, it’s the monogamy vs polyamory episode followed directly by the conversation therapy episode