cw people inventing drama
I have to say that I am massively confused about why people are getting worked up over me and @eevee posting here. i have addressed just about every single issue anyone has ever brought to my face, and I care a lot about making sure I leave the world a better place than I found it.
I don't get what anyone is actually upset about bc it's ever-shifting and rare has anything to do with my actual life or things I've actually done to someone, so it's hard to help fix that?
cw people inventing drama
I dunno it's super fucking weird to have to hear about my supposed crimes from thirdhand parties because no one actually talks to me about anything they think I did, so I can try to figure out where the fuck literally any of it is coming from. I already know people won't listen if they want to be mad, which is why I haven't been concerning myself with people who won't listen. I'm always up for earnest talks with people in good faith, because I'd do the same for them
cw people inventing drama
just, after taking a three month break to purge myself from the internet, it was so... liberating? I got to drop all of the bad feelings that accumulated from feeling like shit over ambient things people thought, that I didn't actually do. I know what I did and didn't do, and now that I'm back, I'm immune to feeling bad over shit I didn't do. spent the entire 10 years of my marriage feeling bad over shit i didnt do & I'm finally sick of it, so I'm done feeling that way
cw people inventing drama
like, christ. it's been a... "treat"... to watch people wield the words of social justice and caring and compassion... as a weapon. what in the fucking hell. it should be obvious when this is happening, it should be easy to see when people are using those words not for their original purpose, but to harm and abuse others. shouldn't it? that's what I want, but that's not reality. I'm really fascinated by what makes it hard for people to tell the difference though?
cw people inventing drama
I'm just. tired. like it's so plainly obvious that people really don't want to let go of a reason to dogpile or be mad. I just want to make sad comics about sad furries trying to get over and process horrific personal traumas, bc that's been my entire life. i care a lot about trying to help people out of those pits, like they're not irredeemable and that there IS a way forward through horrible things, that they're not bad forever, b/c it sucks when people act that way
cw people inventing drama
I don't get it. how can you be left-leaning at all and not be skeptical of people looking for blood. going after people with such fierce anger means you're going to have trouble enacting actual justice in favor of "feels good". it feels "great" to beat up a target that people are pointing at, esp with a flimsy (yet severe!) reason they tack on...
it becomes much harder to go back on what you said, bc you'll either "condone" the made-up crime, or be crucified yourself.
cw people inventing drama
it's a little maddening. people need a "bad person" to rally around, to beat on. i cannot even begin to describe how maddening this has been. ever since the first big callout my ex did going on 4 years ago now, I have been so fucking obsessive about my interactions. instead of being bitter and angry I wanted to do something better, to go "this sucks he felt this way, I should be able to do better than this", so that's what I've relentlessly strived for