@mawr that... makes a lot of sense, for the book, yes. and is quite possibly true! but it doesn't get me any closer to figuring out the picture in my head...
speaking of unreliable memory, I now have no idea if I ever actually saw this picture, or if I made it up or dreamed it or what. >___< if I was better at art I could draw it, it's so clearly in my mind! arrgh...