@chalcedony@octodon.social it's partially to do with having a better neurochemical balance than I used to have, and partially "Over There" thoughts (which I'll probably write from @Troodon@occult.camp). but I have to admit that I have only a squishy linear biological basis for perception; of all the things I am and have been, I cannot recall ever having experienced inorganic consciousness, multiplicity, or life-restarts in the ways you describe. :]
@chalcedony@octodon.social basically I *really* don't want to come across as "oh you'll get over it when you get older" because BLARGH.