identity things, alterhumanity
The more I open up and talk about the parts of my identity I'm still working out, or even just...open up about the personal side of my identities in general, the more vulnerable I feel. The more I want to take it all back, apologize, "sorry, this was silly, I'll just go hide these things again."
I worry how I sound to others, what others are thinking about me when I tell them the things I keep close to my chest in words I worry don't convey well what I feel.
identity things, alterhumanity
I realize that I've always kept the alterhuman communities at some sort of arm's length away from the truly personal stuff. The things I'm loud n proud about rarely touch the deeper parts of myself, and the more they do, the more anxious I feel about it.
I feel like there's a very specific and shallow image of myself that I've projected to these communities for a long time, and breaking with that in being honestly personal is difficult for me.