Indi Latrani @indi@awoo.space

Yay, out-of-nowhere anxiety attack. >.<

So does anyone else have a thing when their anxiety is spiking and hearing "everything is okay" makes things feel worse because you're NOT okay and you're part of "everything"?

I dunno if this is some sort of spectrumy literal-mindedness thing or what but it sucks. Makes me lash out at people who I ordinarily like who are trying to help me and ugh. :(

I feel like all we can do now is remember them well. We'll be keeping the wood. They deserve better than to be carted off and mulched or something. I'm going to get better at carving, so we'll always have something of them around. And we'll be remembering them at our offering fires for a long time to come, I hope.

And the stump is staying, if I have anything to say about it. One never knows what can regrow from those.

I hope all that is enough. I wish I'd been able to do more.

The wind on Friday broke some of their branches, which fell and knocked out power to the house. Everyone else is fine (electrician bill aside) but it seems like it's definitely time, now.

I feel pretty terrible. They deserved better. It's not even a good place for a birch tree. They should be in woods, near running water. Someone 66 years ago thought their yard needed a big impressive tree, and now this. I wish any number of folks had known better how to handle them, us included.

The birch tree in our front yard (they/them) has been dying since we moved into this house. I didn't realize it at first, and by the time we thought to call someone to look at it, it was too late, and may have been too late even when we first moved in.

We've been putting off calling someone to take them down for almost a year, now. Despite the tree's current state, it just seemed too hard, too harsh, to have them cut down. And maybe I still hoped they.d recover somehow.

Guess who just grapple-gunned onto a Tie Fighter, then threw a thermal detonator as they lept off, awesomely landing on a tiny platform above a lava lake!

THIS space otter. ^.^

"Do you not want us to remove the lack of eating utensils from what your meal does not have?" https://awoo.space/media/--_RV48EBr3qhqS5KWk

Their names are Rua (he/him) and Uaine (they/them) and they love each other very much.
https://awoo.space/media/2UlF1OB8nKKnK7b_BSA

Aww yes after wanting him for years I finally got the tyrannosaurus counterpart to my big triceratops plush!

And they're already getting along great!

https://awoo.space/media/bh_7Yr822VtVxIyMv5A

Well that's a new and amusing way for gender-presentation ambiguity to manifest.

Went to get flu shot at work, the form I filled out had a question:

#5: Are you pregnant or suspect you might be pregnant?

So the nurse is going through confirming my answers, like they have to do, and rather than skipping or reading that one, she just goes "And have you read #5 very carefully?"

Rarely have I witnessed such a combination of remarkable tact and remarkable awkwardness. XD

You'd think being plush would make awkward phantom-tail stuff easier since it can just squish against a chair back or something, but it always still feels kinda awkward for me. Not sure why.

Am realizing this morning that I've been feeling really... listless... lately? I think I had a lot of mood whiplash from NM trip and Equinox and then just cold cold cold work chores drudge.

I feel like I should talk about the being-a-synthetic-critter thing more often but I'm kinda not sure how?

Dang it got cold out fast.

I guess it is time to start carrying my hot water thermos everywhere again.

Plush critters like me seem to be bad at temperature regulation. >.<

*gleefully lights lots of Ancient Therian Discourse fires*

https://awoo.space/@indi/2288499

Confession: I think tauntauns are super adorable and I would smooch one a bunch if they were willing.

New plushie, and he is adorable!

And I'll save you all some time; everyone at game night has already made all the standard tauntaun jokes. ;) https://awoo.space/media/4L-7oHzaQ92NHCw3Ngw

LB: This combines with my @reply thoughts about cultural appropriation in some complex way that I can't quite parse right now. Good good thread.