introduction
Hi! I'm Elluim! Y'can call me Ellu.
In an attempt to provide understanding, all of the statements below are true.
-An Ellu is Not From Here!
-An Ellu is a biologist in Seattle.
-An Ellu is a psychedelic space otter dude from Neptune.
-An Ellu sometimes exists at Burning Man!
-An Ellu is passionate about the oceans.
-An Ellu is the unofficial mascot of the postfurry tribe.
-An Ellu enjoys sharing warmth and glow.
-An Ellu is a living act of magic.
-An Ellu is a friend!
ottr.status 2/2 [hardship, medical, --]
On the inverse, my brother has had signs of his cancer coming back. He's already begun motions to combat it, and I can help.
Thankfully, I know what to deal with- a battery of tests, a 5 business-day wait, then a blood transfusion. So it's tentatively one, two weekends in November.
That should help. If it doesn't, they will likely try treatments with my sister.
So, uh, y'know, that plus The Orthocosm in general.
Also work hours back to 6am-2pm yaay. 8|
ottr.status [joy +++]
life's kind of a mess it seems? ahahaha
so, it seems like a formal thing now but i got an Actual Offer to be a Real Employee Thing at the job i'm currently at. I stop being a permatemp at the start of the month.
I was kind of expecting to have to intensely validate my case and existence, so, it feels kind of...weird to just have it...offered. Anticlimax. But it's done. 💜
however ellu also need to Sleep Better and that involves Regular Fucking Bedtimes (even though now I get up a little later!)
so
as always
May you dream of wonders. 💜
(the mental image here is of an Ellu popping out of the water, flopping onto a boat, saying the last few toots, and then diving back in.
i am also /incredibly/ silly.)
Gender transition (chest reconstruction) - info request, plz boost
I just had a consult with a top surgery doctor today! I am really excited but also somewhat anxious about the options. I'm in the fun grey area where I can go with double-incision or inverted-t procedures.
Because of my unique gender situation, I don't know many folks who've had top surgery procedures, or where to find them. I'd love to talk to folks who've had both of the above, especially inverted-T, to help me decide.
Thanks!
music/video, pop culture awesome, pfaf +++
Like, in case it wasn't obvious, yo, it basically me and all my friends?! Like, basically this is our aesthetic wheelhouse. We're /in/, folks.
And that just makes me gush so hard. it's so good. <3
music/video, pop culture awesome, pfaf +++
So Janelle Monáe, pop musician, pretty damn mainstream (like Rolling Stone magazine cover mainstream) released an album called Dirty Computer today
and with it made an 'emotion picture'- a collection of music videos to go with the album
about a pan triad of queer PoC trying to resist a dystopian regime's attempts to reprogram-mindcontrol
IN CASE IT WASNT OBVIOUS ITS QUEER AS HELL AND ABSOLUTE JOY
The Bloop: Ellu Talks About Weird Sea Life
i actually don't have any good takes to make about this other than 'oh gosh plants figuring out to do iridescence aaaa how pretty'
so, aaaaa how prettyyyy, lookit!
https://gizmodo.com/this-glitter-filled-algae-is-a-living-opal-1825359233
(h/t to pinkottr@birdsite!)
I don't know what all is going on right now. I know some things, but I'm not connected to any of the offline happenings, so all I know is what I see...
but a lot of my friends seem to really need a hug and to be held for a while and to just cry...
I'm very sorry that you're in pain right now, and that you feel isolated and alone. I'm sorry that your depression is winning. I'm sorry that your heart is aching. I'm sorry that I can't do more than post words on a screen, and that I can't physically hold you (if wanted or appropriate).
You are still important and worthy of love.
The world is full of some very nasty people, and some good folks but they aren't the issue, right now.
I'm sorry you are hurting.
I'm only as real as I need to be. Are you hallucinating? //Memetic superweapon, playa-stained transdimensional emissary. Queer alien otter boy. [he/they] (NSFW)