diet dr. nasty @pinkplasticwineglass@awoo.space
i have stupid bitch disorder
this is basically a vent account, i try to set my posts as followers only so if shit somehow shows up in your feed my apologies
Joined Jun 2017
child abuse / physical abuse
@pinkplasticwineglass i was talking with my counselor and she was sympathetic when i said i am still scared of my parents because they hit me when i was really young. and she made a reference to me as an "abused child" and said it was normal for me to try and excuse my parents
child abuse / physical abuse
i have a problem where i just dont think i deserve like compassion or respect. its hard to recognize this until i get it in a way i want but think i dont deserve and it feels like whatever small gesture it was takes a huge weight off of me
i think something i haven't been able to identify until now is that i don't really believe that more than a tiny handful of people will ever like me or want to be nice to me
i wonder if expecting myself to socialize normally is a bit much to ask. i have ptsd
there's a guy who comes to the store i work in often that looks like a rounder dorian dragon age and i have a giant crush on him
imm mostly scared of my emotions and dont know how to handle them normally
i like when i come home from doing things and freak out a bit immediately
emeto / hurt animal / cancer
@dragon i hope she will be well again soon
csa
she was 15 and i was 13 when things started which i feel like is a pretty grody age gap because at 15 i would never have dated a 13 year old. its technically only 2 years but a 13 year old is a fetus compared to a 15 year old
abuse / csa
i nkow she had anger issues and was often taking out the stress that her abusive homophobic mother put her in on me but that still is extremely not right
abuse / csa
i remember being 13 and having to leave abruptly in the middle of a conversation with my "girlfriend" and when i came back she had sent me a bunch of incoherent angry messages. and i apologized really profusely for like.. being alive i guess. and at the end of the string of messages she was like "ignore all that" but when i was apologizing she didnt try and stop me at all
i want to hear more about the dragon lady because 🐉
midnight conceptually is just horny but like i still want to hear about her and who she is. shes friends with the other teachers i think
i like the female characters in bnha and they dont get fucking enough time in the spotlight
anyway i successfully gave myself a disease for fatgum. hes really cute and i hope he stays an important character
i hate trauma because even with like zero negative input from people i care about im still flipping 24/7 about whether they like me or not. or if i'll do something they think is inconvenient and will bully me over
theres gays here and im stuck in asshole of nowhere
ive been like burning in jealousy thinking about people who get to live in this city
i have stupid bitch disorder
this is basically a vent account, i try to set my posts as followers only so if shit somehow shows up in your feed my apologies
Joined Jun 2017
