diet dr. nasty @pinkplasticwineglass@awoo.space

sorry my mom came in and grilled me about stuff and i feel like being dead

i want them to not be horrible self centered failures for once. i also want to not be a horrible self centered failure. cant have what you want all the time

i feel like if i pretended that i was 100% sure that i recalled sexual abuse as a young child they would be sympathetic but i can also see them making it about themselves. because thats what theyve done with my gender and depression

idk the dissonance btwn my perspective and my parents. i'm not gonna be normal ever and i don't want to like.. waste energy trying to wrestle myself into performing an imitative fraction of the neurotypical ideal and instead make my way as an eccentric fringe dweller

i know i could say this probably but based on history i will probably be treated like a whiny idiot and like. get a "well this is how being an adult in the real world is." which i refuse to believe but also if it that for real is true i should kill myself now

so i am constantly being told that i am doing poorly or not doing enough instead of it like. being acknowledged that doing anything at all is extremely hard and the fact that i'm like.. working part time and doing a couple school things takes a lot out of me

i get a lot of like. "oh you're really really smart you just procrastinate and are kind of shitty at doing things" which is true i guess but also. any time i do anything at all it takes a ton of work

i feel like my parents dont appreciate how hard i work

mood of the evening https://awoo.space/media/1XiFaszbJ65e2MvVhYw

i dont understand anything

straight men don't drink juice

took nap cant wake up

KITLIN TALKED TO THIS REALLY HANDSOME GUY WHEN IT VISITED DISNEY IM SCREAMING https://www.instagram.com/p/BTXWp-LhILm/?hl=en

what games does izuku play on the ps vita that toshinori gave him

kitlin said this about mirio

Some people, have no eyes, to cope

im married to toshinori. im mr. yagi now

i was 14 at the time and didnt understand that they were in the wrong and were being really fucked up. i thought it was my fault. twas bad

i cant say shit like "i was bullied for not being ace :(" because it sounds like im making shit up but i super was + its one of the more fucked up things that happened to me. like someone was sexually harassing me and they got away with it bcs they were ace and i was a scary allo

saw a cute guy at work today. that's my news