dream log 70: nightmares about being in a dystopian movie and being chased by a huge wall of black glacier, and being threatened right before i go to the restroom https://pastebin.com/RwAhpXGp
been juggling a bunch of stories endlessly for years, both new and old so here's a list:
...and shitty descriptions!
- stardust: awooing space furries
- transdemonal: girl makes bodyswap deal with demon
- blight: moths and bats chased by cryptid
- dream log: me and my dreams
- jitters: lesbian dragons
- bought the cat back: chaotic he/him goddess
- flick/synthesis: human keeps getting horribly lost
- untitled: a wyvern mom meets a hot werewolf gal
- also untitled: a wolf and rabbit are gay
- untitled: sad queer foxes
- untitled: dragon, his twin, and a cat have strange dreams
- untitled: a snake and her sib discover a hole in the ozone
i alternate between at least one or two of these every month, or otherwise i make a new story. choose one out of uhh holy fuck did i seriously accumulate like 12 stories, every single one of them has or will have a developed universe and world full of characters
re: a take on gender expression
i can't see anything as being inherently gendered or binary, not anymore
gender is what you make out of it, and what i'm making my self expression out to be is that everything i wear, everything i express, everything i do, is....... just me. not masculine nor feminine
re: a take on gender expression
my aim when i initially began cutting my hair shorter was never to look more boyish or masculine, it was to look less girlish and feminine, and that shouldn't necessarily have to equate to being more masculine somehow
in other ways, i actually began presenting *more* femininely than i ever had in my entire life before being openly nonbinary so fuck people thinking long hair is inherently girly anyways
re: a take on gender expression
like just what the hell
i thought i'd be okay with people thinking my avatars were boys a long time ago but it bothers me more than i thought it would
i actually kind of feel like they're more feminine than masculine, somehow, and... i dunno, it just feels weird to have people tell me otherwise, after being called a girl irl for so long
but boy-ness shouldn't be the default for anybody with short hair and a flat-looking chest
re: self positivity
huge shoutout to a single tutorial i found on flipnote hatena when i was like eleven that showed me how to animate smoothly and easier and all the basics
from there, i began heavily studying how others animated
i've never forgotten it ever since and it's helped me so much in developing my animating skills and i hope the person who made that tutorial is doing very well now
procreate sure is weird when it comes to animating!
still better than every other mobile animation app i've encountered so far
oh, looks like i'm back to @scoliwings
see y'all later